gender problems

I cannot easily relate to my gender..does it is due to my did or scattered personality..
Like i cannot find pleasure in who i am.Like you know girls find pleasure in their feminity..
Boys find pleasure in their musculinity..
Like boys will do risky things just to create or release their musculine pleasure..
Girls will do things to be beautyfull,attractive and to appear gorgeous...
Like both sex have their own actions they identify.i dont have one.Like i dont have a gemder identofication i am neither feminine nor masculine..i feel both and i feel so confused at tines..
Sometimes i feel extreme rage,anger that i feel like to beat someone and to create some problems..
Spmetimes i feel just to stay and be good,a good friend,a loving one...
But because of this confusion and all i cannot completely dissoolve in to those..

There are plenty of boys who find pleasure in their "femininity" and plenty of girls who find pleasure in their "masculinity." Most people of all sexes and genders find pleasure in combinations of both. It generally varies from person to person.
As for feeling extreme rage while also wanting to stay and be a good friend, I can relate to that. I think a lot of people can. It's difficult to deal with. Like being pulled in two incompatible desires.

My body is female but most of us identify as male and have different sexual orientations. We refer to ourselves as "gender fluid"

Yes, it seems that you are upset, though please don't beat anyone up.

While it might not be pleasure for everyone at any time, perhaps you could find some in androgyny?

I am a person who is likely a bit aspie, and was not the most masculine person before I transitioned, and when I was young I was hurt.

Though before I changed anything about my body I made sure I accepted what I was as far as the strong possibility that I am did. Any hormonal or surgical changes are to be considered for keeps. If you are did, perhaps that everything you are should want the changes for a long period of time--or don't proceed.

Though you can express your gender without making any changes to your body, or make reversible changes such as hair styles, etc.

If you are TS as much as or more than DID, who or what you are will reach from the inside out.

ellenofnine

we're pretty new to DID but realize we mostly identify as male (female body). As soon as we started accepting our DID we started accepting the fact that we were transgender. Do you feel transitioning helped your recovery? (We're afraid we'd make a weird looking guy, we're 5'1" )

I don't think that going through a transsexual transition is curative thing for DID. I think that a transsexual transition is not for the feint-hearted. It's difficult, painful and costly, and should only be done if absolutely necessary.

In my case, living in the other gender role, I ran my life into the ground. While not intersexed, I had little physical peculiarities, just enough to make my life in the former gender role arduous and tedious. Though, because of my internal laws, I needed to find validation from within.

In the early 1990s, I had to consider that I might be DID, and I think I am, well at least the parts that can deal. While I might someday gain acceptance as far as the dissociative thing, for me, I don't think it's going away.

Because TS people are at such great risk of physical harm, I still need this way of being. For me, it's hard to put away tools one is still using.

This is a rhetorical thing, so I don't expect an answer: If you must transition, how can you be sure every part of yourself wants to?

ellenofnine wrote:This is a rhetorical thing, so I don't expect an answer: If you must transition, how can you be sure every part of yourself wants to?

For us, lots of self reflection and seeing how we feel about reversible things first (ex: wearing binders). We discussed it with each other and continue to check in with each other about our levels of comfort. Turns out, all of us are happier and more comfortable as we are now than we were before.
We also made darn sure that we weren't equating gender with gender stereotypes.