Some help please

I am not sure if this is the correct area for my symptoms, but it seems to fit my issue more than others.

I'll keep this short...

Explaining exactly what is wrong is difficult to put into words, I am now 22, but since I was 15 I have experienced having full blown conversations with present people, most recently my girlfriend. I have explained my situation to her and she is extremely supportive. Anyway, having these conversations is real, very real.... but only to me, i could spend 5 minutes having a conversation about general stuff with my girlfriend and at the end she would have no idea what i am talking about if i then ask her a question about it. I also feel quite lost some days, in the sense that i just get through the day being oblivious to everything as if my mind is just wandering.

Also these feelings have not been there for a good 2-3 years, but recently it has come back and just as scary as ever before. I have not seen a doctor yet as i feel i can control it, but i really cannot. Some times i just feel like I'm going to lose my mind, like as if it will just go blank and anything could happen.

Please if anyone could give me some advice, I would appreciate it.

Hi Edward123,

I can't really diagnose you because I'm not a doctor or anything. You should probably go talk to someone like maybe a counselor or a psychologist to find out what's going on with you. It sounds like you are having trouble and that can be scary if you don't know what it is. Time to get brave and find some people to help you.

Good luck,

Iain

Yeah, I think it probably is time I spoke with a doctor about it, i'm quite a confident person so i'm nkt really sure why I haven't went to the doctors yet. Most likely down to not having the time and by the time they get me to the right places this will have passed over for the next year or so. It's not a continous problem which is probably another reason why I haven't bothered until now. But i guess it's time to finally find out what the problem is.

i am not really able to understand what you are trying to explain, especially when you say, "...but since I was 15 I have experienced having full blown conversations with present people, most recently my girlfriend."

by present people, do you mean people you know, friends, family, girlfriend, etc. or having conversations out loud and/or seeing people that aren't really there that feels real or the conversations are with people you perceive are in your head?

I mean having conversations with people who are there.
An example of which is... I was lying in bed yesterday with my girlfriend and i was speaking to her, we had a conversation which lasted a few minutes. But this conversation never happened, it was all in my head.

Inagine speaking with someone who then pretended that yous weren't speaking? Well in my case people are not pretending they haven't had a conversation.

It's quite hard to explain and i'm doing my best to put it into words that make sene. The very first time this happened when I was 15 was the scariest. I had an argument with my ex girlfriend and during this argument I thought I had hurt her and she was crying, i could visually see her crying, but it was actually me that was crying. That was the scariest moment in my life.

Present people = people i'm with, people that are real and present in my company

oh ok. yeah. i'm not quite sure what that could be. i have only had it a few times, but it's not really a symptom of dissociation for me.

i have had the usual conversations in my head though or go through scenarios, etc. of things that did happen or will happen or i want to happen or never will happen, etc. and try to think of how it could go, i'd like it to go, etc. or replay past ones in my head which is all normal. so maybe you are doing that kind of thing but on a deeper level and getting it confused with reality.

I've not much to add, except to endorse what others have said about getting a professional opinion.

perpetuo27 wrote:oh ok. yeah. i'm not quite sure what that could be. i have only had it a few times, but it's not really a symptom of dissociation for me.

i have had the usual conversations in my head though or go through scenarios, etc. of things that did happen or will happen or i want to happen or never will happen, etc. and try to think of how it could go, i'd like it to go, etc. or replay past ones in my head which is all normal. so maybe you are doing that kind of thing but on a deeper level and getting it confused with reality.

I do all of the above, but like you said that is all normal, every single day i question myself if things have really happened. I could do everyday things and then moments later question myself if it was real/happened or if it wasn't real.
A lot of it seems quite normal tbh, I'll get an appointment with the doctor and see what happens from there.