Going Down the Rabbit-Hole

Hi to little b and all the Bees!! So good to hear from you, but I'm sorry things are so hard right now. It's great that your daughter is ok and your brother is helping.

birdsong87 has great advice, as always. We have a lot of babies and toddlers as well, and have made safe, comfortable rooms for them. We rescued them first, and gave them safe baths to get clean, and dressed them in comfy clothes, and fed them, and they have soft, safe places to sleep. A nursery in the castle is a good idea, and make sure they know the bad man can't come in. If they see the face, maybe you can imagine that it's on a TV and you can turn it off.

When you all are feeling better, maybe you and other littles can come back to the littles' thread. We miss you!

the Gang

Hi little b and the other bees. It's so nice to hear from you and I hope you're okay.
I think making a nursery in the castle is a great idea and also asking Aelen for help and singing to the babies.
My T says that even when babies don't understand the words you say to them, they do understand intentions - based on how it sounds. So maybe you could talk to them anyway. Maybe invite them to look through your eyes when there is something comforting around.
I also got my very little parts a real plushie, especially for them.
And they seem to like it a lot when people play instruments.

Hi littleb

We found that sometimes babies are scared because they have never seen nice people so they don't trust us because all they know is meen. we have a dolly that we look after like it was a real baby . When babies are near we look after the dolly so they can see that we are good nice nanny's. Then they feel safe and go back to sleep. Maybe one day they let us go help them or maybe they will go to sleep and be having such a nice dream they don't wake up again. Also our babys are always hungry sometimes what they need is milk mother figure uses brestpump then irl (not for very long cos we not actually making milk an we would probably get a bruise ifn we did it more than a minit) and then they go back to sleep.

thank you for all the suggestions ♡ this community is truly incredible

we watched dear little ones A LOT

it said we could use art for our feelings. we used markers and paper and drew many things.

I think, maybe, that I'm starting to understand that was THEN and NOW is SAFE. but wow. very surreal to experience these things.

what seems to be working now is art and walks and sensory play. we really enjoyed brushing my little ponies hair. we have a big twilight sparkle. lots of stuffies and cuddling with a hammer.

I have read and reread everybody's suggestions and I'm so thankful and excited to try them out.

we have an appointment at a specialty health center in a major city to see a neurologist to get help with our physical body and the brain injury deficits. we are hopeful but not expectant. the appointment is in march. (RT)

babies are new for me. I am trying to keep them clean and dry and fed. and talk with pictures and words. aside from kind of ######6 up the memory vault I have been with a pretty good T for about three years with a few breaks caused by health/work commitments. I finally burned out of corporate America and it is looking like disability/social security time has finally come. this is a huge relief in a way. and also a new stressor. (Zahra)

my daughter is doing really well since my brother moved in as a partial caregiver. my doggy is still with us and she is the best sweetest most special guard doggie. and we have two little kitties so it is a lot of furry friends at home. I think things are mostly OK even though I got fired and my memory vault got cracked and the babies woke up. it is better for the babies to be with us now where we can take care of us again. so we love the babies. 《Multiple Bs》

my dear friends - I am so joyous to hear from you and wish you all the best love and support I can. you are way more freaking awesome than you know!! and please be so amazed at how marvelous and brilliant you are!

my friends. my heart. the best friends. thank you ~lil b

I am going to try and remember to come back more. I think I deleted this website and threw away my binder and comms books. I've been in a pretty awful stretch of "endure and survive" kind of way past my limits for the last few years....

Hello Bs! I am so happy to hear from you. I was just thinking about you a few days ago. You have been missed.

BRETT!!!! YOU ARE STILL HERE!!!!!

I hope all is good with you and your family ♡♡♡

will you send me your blog again? I want to read your stories. I had to make a new name so I cannot send messages yet or click on people.

I am so glad you are still here!! there is like a million hearts from our littles.... lots of excitement

my new family went to the store and bring home everything.

we got food and juice boxes and yummy snacks and soft stuffies and a toy and medicine for my cold.

my new family loves me and keep me safe ♡

I have been having a hard time. Burnout is just so extra, extra bad this time.

I am going to live in the woods part-time this month. I've scheduled a week at my favorite beach flop and then I booked campsites for 4-5 nights per week through February.

I feel like being the household manager is killing me. They are 38 and 15. I'm leaving them to-do lists and then I'm out.

I made sure to always come back to town to check-in on them and do my weekly therapy appointment.

I just can't anymore. I can't deal with people or phone calls or emails or appointments or bills or neighbors or taxes or anything.

super ###$

I really get it. We are constantly at the border to burnout...
taking yourself out of that situation and to a calm space sounds so helpful.
I just hope that it doesn't create more space for painful things to come up...
we are terrified of not having enough distractions and being alone with our feelings.
hope you will find some peace.

TW for brief suicide mention in first paragraph
The denial thing is real. Write letters to yourself, give yourself time and patience, and talk to an understanding friend (or heck, phone a crisis hotline! they're not just for sucidide).
I'm honestly am still muddling through the denial phase as well, and it is a little different for me, but I can still confidently say that there are many out there who struggle in a similar way.
Jounalling and any way of getting your thoughts out of your head really helps, so that's a good first step. If you can, trying to find a good therapist could help a lot.
I'm just as crazy as you are. I believe in you, as much as I can as a stranger on the internet!

-Love from Passion (She/They), Logic (couldn't care less), and Dark (She/Her)