for the protectors [venting and advice]

I hear you. Sorry your host is sick or whatever. Yeah. People depending on you will make you think about more than being mad.

Colin

Thanks. Yeah i can go around parents without being on high alert. Cant seem to ever shake that off.

Napoleon Replying, Venting and asking for advice.

I’m one of the protectors for my host Wolfgang..Lately nobody else has been awake And it’s been difficult for me to handle everything. I feel tired and worn down. My host can’t handle many of the tasks expected of him at work and shuts down forcing me to take over. I am not usually one to pry when it comes to my companions whereabouts or reasons for not wanting to leave their rooms, but this is something Even I am having trouble handling on my own.

I also worry that this job is unhealthy for Wolfgang but he insists he can do it, when he obviously can’t. He doesn’t remember shutting down or becoming stressed at work because I handle those things for him..There are even job counselors ready and willing to assist him in finding another job. What can i to make him see leaving this job is the right choice? I don’t want to upset him by going behind his back to speak with his counselors about it, but he won’t listen when I attempt to communicate with him directly. Can anyone offer advice?

Ok, so I don’t like the idea of being a part of a group, but ###$ it, I only just realized that I’m a protector, so maybe those of you who’ve been dealing with this longer have got something useful to say. I mean, I doubt it, but it’s worth a try.

I just want to be looking out for myself, but if other parts make stupid ######6 decisions, then it affects me too, and that sucks. The T means well and tries to be nice, but so did that other idiot, and that was a disaster. He pretended to care about us, but he only really cared about feeling good about himself, and feeling like he was helping.

And the stupid husband guy (I’ve never liked him) can’t even do his own ######6 chores and I have to do all of them, for weeks, and I’m supposed to be nice and let the other ones spend time with him when I don’t want to!! Also, he’s worrying them a lot because he’s still going on a long plane trip which you’re not supposed to do with a cast on your leg because you can get a blood clot. But he really wants to go. He thinks I’m joking when I say that I’m going to be furious about this until he comes back, because he is really scaring the littles and a bunch of others, and I have to deal with all the fallout.

Anyway, this is probably a big ######6 waste of time, so never mind. People are just useless and ruin everything, at least as far as I’ve seen. But if there really are others who have to deal with this kind of $#%^ all the time, then I may as well hear what you have to say. No one in here seems to want to listen to anything I have to say.

NoName (as in, if I had one, I wouldn’t ######6 tell anyone!)

Nodding.

Rachel

I hate being part of a f*cking group! All the others are just stupid and weak! A bunch of f*cking babies who can't get their sh*t together! I'm SO sick and tired of them doing stupid sh*t and giving that f*cking monster a reason to punish us!

The stupid f*cking T says I'm a protector but I'm not protecting sh*t! If it was up to me we would have just gone ahead and died the first time. Then that f*cking monster would have been stuck with a dead kid and that would have been f*cking hilarious!

Bren

And F*CK YOU Iain for editing my F*CKING words!!!!

Hey Bren, this stupid forum won't even LET certain words through--it changes them even more than Iain did.

We didn't have a monster who punished us, just people who pretended to care or even thought they did care, and then just waited until we believed it to ######6 CRUSH us, and all these stupid babies and idiots in here will never learn that that's what always ######6 happens if you trust someone. ALWAYS!!! Idiots.

I don't want us to be dead, but $#%^, can't we just go live in the woods or something, away from PEOPLE??!!

NoName

Hey NoName. You seem to get it. Why can't these other dumb f*cks??? Don't trust ANYBODY! And NEVER Ts who pretend to be nice. I'm just waiting for her to screw us. I hate listening to them being nice to her and talking and saying she's great. She's NOT f*cking great! She's going to HURT us. I liked the stupid clueless Ts better who just jerked around for a few months till Host finally left. The Littles opened the door and LET THIS ONE IN!!!! Makes me SO f*cking mad! They are going to get hurt and I'll just LAUGH because then they'll know what it feels like.

Bren

Hey, Bren, the littles in here were ALREADY hurt by a ######6 idiot T, DESTROYED for years, and they STILL think this one is great! And some older ones who should know better also! I think they are just too stupid to realize he’ll hurt them again, and they WON’T ######6 LISTEN to me!!! And I’m the bad guy??!! I wish I could slap some sense into them!!

And now I have to deal with stuff at home, too. I thought it was safe and took my eyes off it for awhile—should have known not to let my guard down anywhere!!

So good luck with yours but don’t ######6 hold your breath that they’ll ever ######6 learn that you’re right!

NoName

Bren,

Nice to meet you. I'm not a typical protector; I'm a wise-ass. But I have an appreciation for the word "f*ck."

Meet Rachel, the annoying older sister that we never had on the outside. She's a lot like you in some ways, but she rarely talks to outside people. She's big on not giving away anything that could potentially be used against her.

Laura and others