IS THAT ME TALKING?

HI,

I'VE BEEN WANTING TO ASK YA'ALL ABOUT TALKING. MY VOICE ALWAYS FEELS LIKE IT'S NOT MINE. LIKE I'M TELLING SOMEONE ELSE WHAT TO SAY. I DON'T HAVE ANY PROBLEM ON THE INSIDE, BUT PYSICALLY SPEAKING OUT, FEELS UNNATURAL. I STRUGGLE WITH IT. I KNOW THERE ARE A COUPLE PARTS THAT ARE VERY OUT GOING, AND VOCAL. I'M NOT. I'D RATHER TALK THIS WAY (POSTING).
I DON'T KNOW WHY IT MAKES ME FEEL SO WEIRD. WISH I COULD OUT GROW IT. DO ANY OF YOU FEEL THIS WAY? DO YOU HAVE TROUBLE SPEAKING OUT?

BENNY

I personally do not have trouble speaking. A few of my alters are shy but I don't know if they feel the same way you do. I sometimes feel like when I am talking its someone elses voice, or someone elses words, but I am not really scared of talking. I am sorry its hard for you to talk. What about it scares you?

THANKS FOR ANSWERING LALALARK,

IT FEELS LIKE, I'M TALKING FROM SOMEONE ELSES HEAD. IT'S LIKE LOOKING OUT OF A CAMERA, AND PULL BACK THE ZOOM LENSE. WHEN I'M CHANGING IT SUDDENLY FEELS LIKE MY EYES ARE GOING BACKWARDS AWAY FROM THE PERSON, BUT MY HEAD STAYS WHERE IT IS. WEIRD. I SHAKE IT OF RIGHT AWAY, BUT IT'S HARD TO KEEP YOUR COMPOSER WHEN YOU JUST GET DROPPED IN ON LIKE THAT. YOU'D THINK THEY'ED AT LEAST "KNOCK" FIRST. I'VE LIVED IN VARIOUS PARTS OF THE COUNTRY, SO MY ACCENT CHANGES WITH THEM. IT JUST FEELS WEIRD. I GUESS I WORRY TOO MUCH ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK. STILL, ANYWAY, I HAD A LITTLE TALK WITH THEM ABOUT IT, AND THINGS SEEM TO BE BETTER. I JUST WANTED TO SEE IF ANYONE ELSE HAD THE SAME PROBLEM.

YOURS TRULY,
BENNY

I don't think I've switched out, but I do feel like I'm floating back some times when talking, and listening to someone else talk for me. D says its just me spacing out while chatting away, regular multitasker, I am.

Ok that helps me understand a little better. I do feel like I am zooming out. It makes me SUPER SUPER dizzy and sometimes I feel like passing out. Also when this happens I am usually sharing with someone and I can see or hear what is happening but I don't usually understand it, or I forget it altogether and go inside and not remember anything. This has been happening quite a bit lately as we have had a number of anniversaries this month and next.
Did it help to talk to them? I am not sure if talking would help us on this.Thanks for sharing

YA, THAT'S IT LALALARK! MAKES YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR FLOATING THERE STARING AT SOMEONE, AND WONDERING HOW YOU GOT THERE. I DON'T KNOW IF ANYBODY EVER GETS USED TO THE FEELING.

I'VE BEEN JOURNALING FOR ABOUT A YEAR NOW. I JUST SIT DOWN ONCE IN A WHILE, TO WRIGHT WHAT I'M FEELING. WE DIDN'T GET ALONG TOO WELL AT FIRST BUT ARE NOW COVERSING REGULARLY. I HAD TO JOURNAL IN ORDER TO KNOW FOR SURE WHO I WAS TALKING TO, AND WHY THEY WERE THERE. THEY WOULDN'T LET ME KNOW BEFORE THAT. I'D JUST HEAR THESE VOICES. USUALLY INSULTS. WE CAN GET TOGETHER ON THINGS ONCE IN A WHILE, BUT FOR THE MOST PART, LIKE THEIR INDIVIDUAL PERSONALITYS.

HOPE YOU ALL ARE DOING WELL!
BENNY