MakersDozn wrote:I'm interested in this topic. I keep dreaming about things that happened 10, 20, 30 years ago. These are not happy dreams.
Part of me wants to hold onto the past and the pain that it brought me, because I'm afraid to let go and move forward into the unknown. Another part of me wants to heal. I can't stand having conflicting feelings.
Charity
Hi Charity,
I'm sorry you keep having those dreams. :/
What you mentioned here, it's so true. We sometimes hold onto the past and the pain. The sole idea seems so uncanny, but yet true.
When I read your words I felt so... Emotional, or tenderness. Dunno what word exactly would explain what I fealt. But I know how I felt like.
I guess, I wanted to tell you that I understood your feeling, and I wanted to encourage you to let go of that hurtful past. It's gone. Not present. It can't hurt you no more. You can be free of those hurtful feelings.
By the way, all those conflicting feelings are totally normal. It is hard to let go, it is what's known, and we hold onto what we know, even if it's hurtful. But we also want to heal. One day, that part who fears to let go, will trust that part that wants to heal. Will close their eyes, and free themselves of suffering.
Take care Charity, and you all. Hope those dreams are left in the past.
Sea
Taking myself some time away from PF. Sea (Dec, 2016)