Fit of denial or something else *trigger*

*Trigger* talk of denial, acceptance and the lot.

I had an fit of denial I guess. Others begun to reel up against it, like "were here, deal with it"
Communication about names, likes, dislikes and the all, to get an sense of who they are, and to become more aware of switching and presences. Now, i am aware of several, including names it seems, yet there are still pieces of lost time, atleast, to me it seems so. Not always knowing who is out, but getting an sense it is an little, teenagers, adults.
Its not that easy for us to classify it in such simple ways, but I am sort of aware it can be an beginning of communication and awareness, were people after all.

I am strugling, with what i think, Self-denial. I/we are all for deepening and individuality, tho it may blur at times, and co-consciousness cant be forced ( and I believe we are co-conscious even at these moments, or at least co-present in one way or another ) Its as if I know yet not know who they are and it just takes patience and time perhaps, tho they come out. It make my legs feel weak and sad.

Self-denial as in adding stuff to others, denying my own, perhaps an not wanting to deal with it? it could be an habit, purposely fragmentation to not having to deal with it. it makes me blank out to an extent. This contributes in an blur i suppose, which makes our communication worse in an way, and yesterday it felt all counter-productive, yet taking an break was ovewhelming, maybe i was co-present ( without being aware of it ,with someone, or someones. Assumptions yet it popped up just yet )

Mostly denial can be easily to deal with, now names are popping up over the place, possible "new alters" but not sure. I keep encouraging them to come in the body if they want, and our system begins to form, or atleast there is an awareness of an pattern, but I still seem to doubt, with names in particular. Some sound so similar. Im just scared to assume stuff

Not sure why I am writing this, and possible along with others currently.
It feels as if being blindfolded, as being kept in an frozen spot. Asking felt to much and our writing, acknowledging turns into an confirmation. Its just darn confusing which is an understatement.

Just need some insight and words of encouragement i suppose. being patient is hard and maybe I need an break and focus on other stuff. myself perhaps. They will come around eventually again, maybe even clearer and more defined, as if the locks fall in place and stuff makes sense.

Hi, MultipleMinds
I'm Pasquale! This is the first day I'm out but I think I can give you some good advice hopefully.
The key to acceptance is communication within the system and trust. You need to trust your alters and give them some space to take control. If they are there, they are there for a specific reason and each of them has a precise role you should identify and respect.
Denial is extremely dangerous for the system, it makes alters feel invalidated, denied, stepped on. They might turn against you and cause conflicts in the system so it's best to accept them for who they are and give them the importance they deserve.
Self denial is part of DID, it's okay to feel it every now and then, but don't make it a rule, but an exception.
If they introduce themselves with names, accept them and invite them to take control of the body, trust them, guide them.
You'll see time will make things better. You can contact me if you need help with stuff, ok?

Pasquale

Thank you.

Yesterdays denial resulted in an sort of shutdown. All communication broke off imidiately, as if our head tried to make sense of it, resulting in derealization episode and just feeling horrible.
There is an sort of noticing of patterns, this quality attached to names, atleast for me/us. And it seems that others know when an "new" one enters "the scene"( hawks influence? ) Like, whoah...

What you describe about inviting in the body works mostly for us aswell. often feel to pushy tho, as if wanting to know to fast, which could be the source of our denial. Not sure, not going to assume. just typing whats coming up right now, being honest. For us, some communicate better when in the body, yet am aware that i wont let go fully at times, which i was somewhat convinced about before. Still cencoring for example in writing, which is probably an habit.

The self-denial...Its basically wanting to know much about the others inside, while it will come by itself, which takes time, patience and communication. I just seem to forget myself often, as if I owe them something, while were in this together Well, that sounded/felt....familiar.

Were all people in the end, an I seem to turn things in an "norm", this could easily have to do with another control kind of thing. Its also an patience thing, be it even subconscious, leading to confusion about what to do, how to let go of control. Its a bit paradoxial.

ElKahn wrote:so it's best to accept them for who they are and give them the importance they deserve.

This.

Guess I want to figure stuff out to quick. resulting into headache

ElKahn wrote:If they introduce themselves with names, accept them and invite them to take control of the body, trust them, guide them.

And this! Its so logical now!! >.< But yet so fleeting.