Scared, denial, and questioning

Once again we are making a new thread. Update first: last night we were switching in our "sleep" and one slept for around 5 hours. So many switched in and out. We don't know who exactly was out, but it seemed like a lot had a go at being out for a few minutes.

Back to what the thread is suppose to be about:
Starr is questioning her unofficial diagnosis of DID because she had a conversation with her mother and her mother kept pushing the idea that she had psychosis, which I know that Starr has a diagnosis of Severe Major Depressive Disorder with Psychotic Features. She was questioning that diagnosis since we came out and introduced ourselves to her, the psychotic features part. However, now she is reading the DSM-V criteria for schizophrenia and is doubting the unofficial DID diagnosis and thinking it might be schizophrenia because of what she has read and what others are trying to tell her.

It is frustrating me because she's in denial again and we have to suppress her inside to keep her from telling her parents that she might have schizophrenia because of what she has read. We do have several alters that have hallucinations (auditory and visual), bizarre delusions, and paranoia, some with just one, some with two, some with all three. We also have some with personality disorders and developmental disorders. So we have a mix of everything really. But, Starr is in severe denial and we have no clue what to do. It seems like her mother keeps pushing her to believe that it is psychosis and that she is just hearing voices. I really do not like her mother. I've never really trusted her mother.

It seems like we are at a standstill again with some wanting to hurt themselves, some in denial, some switching constantly, and some just, well, traumatized and keep going through flashbacks and body memories. We have a whole load of crap going on in our system, but the worst is the denial and questioning of Starr. It seems like we cannot change her mind even when we switch out with her and do things that she doesn't remember doing, like making posts on here and writing on pieces of paper to remind her that we are here and that we are real.

Do you have any advice for us to help with this denial and questioning of self diagnoses? There are so many that she is made out to have that she is questioning so many things and is hurting inside and starts to cry at night with no one around. We do not know how to help because we are still somewhat in a crisis of revolving-door switching. Sorry for bothering you.

Before I discovered DID, I was also trying to find other disorders that could explain my nighttime hallucinations and auditory hallucinations. I did think that I had Schizophrenia, but I ruled it out since, from what I read, people with schizophrenia don't know that they are ill and that the visual hallucinations and delusions aren't real. I know that it's common with DID for the host to have denial off and on. As for how to deal with it, I'm uncertain to be honest. To be honest, self diagnosing isn't a good idea since it can lead to misdiagnosis especially since DID crosses symptoms with a whole number of mental illnesses. Most people end up hurting themselves because of self diagnosis. I think suppressing Starr until she stops being in denial is a good idea because I would hate for her to do something hurtful out of jumping to conclusions.

Some of the documentaries that Starr has watched, the person/people with schizophrenia sometimes know when they have hallucinations/delusions. Before we came out, she did have a lot of visual hallucinations and paranoia about being poisoned and followed by shadow figures. That is why she is still in denial about the DID because of what has happened. She also has believed that Dusk, one of the first alters to introduced himself to her, was a voice or a hallucination or a real person that stayed with her at all times and sat next to her in the empty seat when she was in a car/at the table. She knew about him since she was six.

Thank you for supporting our decision to suppress her until she is calm and rational. Before she knew of the disorder, she, for years, believed she had schizophrenia. It confused her because we took over and she lost significant amount of time, even though she was in denial about it and considered it to just be selective memory. Even with severe body memories, she denied it until the last January, but even then she believed she had schizophrenia. Sometimes I thought she wanted to be diagnosed with schizophrenia. It is hard in a world where adults in the family don't believe you and want to control what you think. Starr also believes she cannot trust anyone anymore, not even her T and Pdoc,which I don't trust them either, but that is a different story. Thanks for replying.