by MultipleMinds » Tue Dec 23, 2014 4:19 pm
Thank you all for the replies.
Its hard, as soon as something surfaces we switch and detach it seems. Im not really present and just numb, confused to an extent.
An little memorial with an picture and candles seem to be preferd by littles inside as they seem to want to organize such a thing and want to come out 1 by 1 to do such a thing, like a wake from people inside.
Its so difficult to allow ourselves to cry. Crying is terrifying for us, vulnerability. We cant even if we want. Someone(s) wont allow it, and it triggers an switch directly, detaching and sudden feel "fine", like not getting it at all what its all about ( wanted to type, "what all the fuzz is about" guess others are equally confused and deal in such a way )
That i/we are feeling unreal as if he can come back while not make our littles question stuff. Am trying to explain it to them, they deserve to know it, on their own time.
Im just numb, dazed, switchy and all and just cant accept it just yet. Guess it takes time. It really confuses me to re-realize that our dog isnt amongst us anymore multiple times.
We are with many. How many is unknown.