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I've just spent a lot of time reading all topics on the first two pages, and some on the third page as well, just because..., well, I can't really find the right words to describe it, but recognizing so much really gives a lift. I'm a sixteen-year-old girl from The Netherlands with DID and some other disorders like dysthymia and BPD in development, but also disorders that just belong to alters or that become more complicated due to multiplicity. Luckily I'm no longer in my old environment, because if I stayed there, my multiplicity probably would still be a secret to both myself as others. I have a fostermom, a guardian and a good therapist now. We're already quite far in our DID-process when it comes to communicating with one another, but concerning other things, we've still got a long path ahead of us.
Our 'core', the person who was born into this body, is integrated with a small active alter. We couldn't find our core for years and were actually quite convinced she had died, but later on we discovered she never became older than eleven as protection of herself (so she could keep her childish enthusiasm) and had almost only experienced good things. She integrated with an extremely sad and cast aside little one (nine years old) for some reason, and now we have an active ten-year-old which we all adore, but which seems bipolar at times (either extremely happy and enthusiastic or extremely sad, hardly ever something else). But thanks to that, a lot of childhood primary school memories have been preserved, also "managable" trauma's: "That teacher accused me of standing up and being cheeky when we were supposed to write the alphabet as a test, but I didn't know what it meant, a test, nobody'd explained! She was so mean... I hate her!"
But sometimes we're angry our core didn't keep growing (older), because now we have to bear everything and switch our "head-alter" with body-age every now and again, because we haven't found a way to age ourselves. The good thing is we're doing school again since recently, but in high-school we were all there, now I can only ask help from others on the background and am not allowed to put them forward so they can do the talking to people. It's not fair, I'm so used to doing school together. Quite stupid, I know..

Well, this is a long introduction, I'll leave it at this, because I tend to regret it afterwards when I'm too open about myself, and sometimes get restless alters that turn uncontrollable. Hope I haven't crossed any line of my own or my alters

Hope to get to know everyone on here,
N.

Hello, welcome, I'm Mike, I have two active alters named D and Frank. They like to post some times, as you may have noticed from reading the older threads. Hope you enjoy being here, and find whatever answers you're looking for. Feel free to ask anything.

Welcome! I am Amber, and I am lAlA we are real glad you are here you seem so nice.
Yes we are glad you are here and we hope to get to know you as well.
~Amber and lAlA and all...

Thanks for the welcomes Mike, Amber and lAlA, we really appreciate it

ooh yay new people!
Hiya, I'm Harri.
And Holly. nice to meet ya!
We'll take the liberty of wishing you a warm welcome from everyone else in our little multiverse
~Harri

Thanks for the welcome Harri, Holly, and everyone else

Our apologies that we don't write our names underneath our messages yet, we suppose it'll come with time. When we end with just a first letter we do have a whole name, but well, it's still a little hard for some reason , while it does feel like we know you all a lot longer already than we do, since we recognize so much. Surreal is 'just' a (safe) nickname.

Us

Thats ok Surreal,
If you feel safe using that nickname please feel free to use it. We would not want you to feel uncomfortable in any way.
We are very glad that you are here sharing with us. Sometimes, we forget to put our names down, or we dont want to put our names down.
Anyways, we are just glad you are here.
Amber and all

hello and welcome I'm Kaizo

now is it just me or are there all of a sudden loads of people joinin how great!

Kaizo

I was refraining from pointing that out, but as soon as this thread came up, I was like "My, aren't we suddenly the popular thread"

Glad you understand Amber We're glad to be here as well.

Thanks for welcoming us Kaizo!
Haha, well, I can only speak for myself about how come new people are suddenly joining, but I found this forum in the links-area of another forum regarding personality theories. And it looked great, plus I feel a lot better at English groups than at Dutch for some reason, so here we are.