Help understanding something T said

I've had a really rough go of it this past week or so. My T in replying to me said this:
It occurred to me that the YOU does not seem to take ownership of or connection with your parts. That you can see their particular strengths, but miss that they are born of you, part of you. All of your parts together are YOU, but divided strategically for survival of a f’d up childhood.

She knows I understand this on a logical, intellectual level. But, she is right that I look at the parts and I am jealous of the fact that they have the skills and abilities that I wish I had. I feel so much less than the parts of the whole. When it comes down to a "feeling" level they really are other people that just happen to inhabit the same space.

My self-esteem is such $#%^, that I am jealous of a bunch of neurons.

Is this what she is trying to say to me, or am I miss reading it? And, how have others managed to move information from a theoretical knowing to a feeling/belief knowing?

Thanks

You envy them for their strengths. There are two sides to this feeling coin: envy and desire. When you reach the point of desiring, wanting those strengths for yourself, then you will be so much closer to integration. It is in your power, through emulation and/or integration, for you to have all those strengths.

In the meantime, an initial step is for you to come to identify with the collective you. A number of exercises help with that. One is writing a biographic sketch about each alter. Another is drawing a system map. Learn how you all work, separately and together, to do what needs to be done.