Somebody help me

ElKahn wrote:Lol no? I'm not going crazy? Then why do I feel people "possessing" me, kicking me out of my own place and...god!!! I don't even know how to explain this!

You don't have to explain. We've been through this before. As for why, for every person with a DID, our alters were created due to trauma and to help us cope with stressful times. Jonathan mentioned he represented you when you were bullied and I don't know about Nathan. You should try to get to know them and respect them. Even if you don't accept them, respecting them will go a long way.

And what am I supposed to say to my friends who are telling me I haven't been "there", not texted them and they say I said I feel "like I am going insane" and confused?
I think one of them is really angry now. What am I supposed to say?
I've been "here and there" for 3 days now.

I don't know. I also do that where I'll be in the middle of text conversation with someone and then forget that I'm talking to them. I just tell them I was distracted but I have ADHD so that's why that excuse works for me. You could just tell them you've been really stressed out and that the stress really got to you without bringing up your alters. That's what I would do. I don't know if that works for you though.

Well I have some other disorders and they know. I'm a very distracted person, too.
I'm trying to tell them I'm ok but they keep telling me "sometimes it feels like you're not there" or "I noticed you are getting more and more distant as days go by".
This sucks.

Well, if they're your friends, they should be accepting of the possibility of you having DID right? I would only tell the ones you trust, if you want to tell them.

Nope. I can't tell them. The shame and fear is too much.
And do they really need to know? I don't think so.
My alters don't want it either.
I'm already scared and confused....I wish it was just a bad dream and that I could wake up.

I was upset and confused about it too. I just recently discovered my alters a couple of months ago. I didn't want to acknowledge them either but I decided to think of it this way: I'm going to have to live with this situation and I might as well make the best of it. Each alter is their own person so I thought about it as if I was meeting a stranger for the first time that I wanted to be friends with. If I don't trust and respect the other person, they won't trust me back and will be more likely to be harsh and/or scared of me and I didn't want that. Cooperation is key with DID but everyone gets there at their own pace.

I'm feeling ok right now, almost as if nothing happened these days.
I guess I'm starting to accept it without obsessing over it and without panicking?
Or are the alters just "sleeping"? Or are they leaving me alone for a while to help me readjust to this new situation?

ElKahn wrote:I'm feeling ok right now, almost as if nothing happened these days.
I guess I'm starting to accept it without obsessing over it and without panicking?
Or are the alters just "sleeping"? Or are they leaving me alone for a while to help me readjust to this new situation?

I think they are leaving you alone for a while to readjust to the situation and let you calm down, which is a good thing. They have to respect you and your wishes for them to get that same respect from you.

*Applause*
Well said, viola. Well said. This is Nathan here. The host invited me to come, and I came to take his place. I like that.
Do you have an idea of why he called me?