Internal Communication May Trigger

The internal noise, I'm calling my alter noise because they are causing a real distraction at work. The internal noise, is distracting me from listening to my trainer, my co workers, my managers and also while at the same time thinking about what how I can best learn at new job from the data the trainer speaks. I'm contemplating disability due to all my labels. It's really causing me to go back to self harm and sucidieal ideations because I know we can work with this disorder. I've been in therapy since 2011 and know therapy takes a toll, but I didn't think I would have this much internal noise or number of alters.

Is there anyone that can tell me how you managed, for those of you that are in therapy and noticing discoery and memories are really diffucult to deal with. My alter never hush infitnite mind,. I don't mind listening to my infitnite mind at home, but they need to hush at work. Cause now im getting fired for being slow, forgettfulness, now I seem like a liability. Then I get verbal spatts at work and since I don't talk back I internalize it instead of discussing what may have happened with my employers. I'm very senstiive to any type of correection expecially now because like I lost the last 3 jobs to my internal noise. Starting to hate my others .

I wish I could. Fact is that this is one of the things that drove us into disability. I'm sorry for the chaos. Just wanted to let u know that we understand what this is like. We have lost many jobs due to DID or related issues as well.