Help Me Please.

So, I don't really know where to start, I don't want my real name getting out there so I am going to call myself L. I am 20 years old and I am so confused. for the longest time my memory of things has been bad, I have been told stories about myself I do not remember, I have come around in the middle of town and different places I do not remember going too in clothes I don't remember choosing out, im just very scared and very confused for the lognest time I don't know whats wrong with me,
I have spoken to a few people who have suggested something on the dissociative spectrum as they have also recognised differences in me, I have recently been under a lot more stress and have lost full days which has never happened to me before, and its really upsetting me, I have been told that there are times where the things I say and the way I act are far from myself. I have looked up DID and one thing which is prominent for me is the fact I don't get a lot of voices? I do occasionally but its for a short period of time and yeah, I also do not believe I suffered any trauma in my childhood other than being severely bullied from nursery school and also a lot of hatered off my mother (I don't know whether to call it emotional abuse)? but other than that I do not know any trauma which happened to me and as far as I can remember my childhood was fairly happy? I am so worried about what is going on in my mind but the doctors will not listen when I explain that I am loosing time, going places and not knowing how I got there, all the things I have listed above.
I find when I get too anxious or scared I leave the real world and go to a place in my head, though I do not have a good memory of exactly what it is like there.
is it possible it is DID despite not being physically/sexually abused to my knowledge? or is it something entirely different?
please help im desperate..
L xxxx

Hi L. I have the same thing as you. I'm not diagnosed with DID but I think I might have it since I lose time and people have told me that I make gestures that I don't remember making. I also think my childhood has been relatively happy, despite a few things here and there. I was thinking that it's possible that something traumatic did happen to me but my brain has blocked it out and buried it deep in my memory where I can't get to it. Emotional abuse can cause DID and my mom has a tendency to be emotionally abusive. She means well but the way she goes about it is not favorable. It sounds like you've had some dissociative fugue where you travel somewhere with no memory of how you got there. I would see about talking to a medical specialist about your symptoms. It does sound like it's very likely you have DID.

I can't diagnose you, but it could. I believe that it is more likely that DID occurs with sexual and physical abuse that happened before the age of nine. I think that emotional abuse that happened over a period of time that started before the age of nine could cause DID. It does sound like you have a lot of dissociation. You don't need persistent voices to have DID, but identity alterations and two or more "alters-parts-others" take over the body. Like Viola says, I would suggest talking about this to a specialist that treats dissociative disorders.

Allison