Sweet_berries wrote:@Riccola - Thank you so much. I think I am starting to understand this more and feel less intimidated. For most people around me think that DID and Schizophrenia are one and the same. So they think having DID makes you psychotic and there's a lot of stigma about it. I'm sure you guys know more about this than anyone else as you are experiencing it firsthand. Thanks again.
@Kit. I really can't thank you enough. Thank you for taking the time to write this very informative and eell though-out post. Well I took an online test for the sake og it and I scored 64 so it's not unlikely t I might have DID but I just don't feel like I have it. I pretty much can relate to most of the points you mentioned although I don't really recall any trauma but I do space out a lot and I have a very poor short term memory. Um I was wondering if it's common for other people to tell you you have DID but you don't believe that you do. Some people keep saying I have this and they are openly labelling me as mentally ill and e en informing other people as though it's a fact despite not being diagnosrd by a professional. I don't really like this because I feel like they're doing this to demean me and spread unverified rumors about me which zI don't regard. I hope I didn't offend anyone. I mean this is an exceptionally rare disorder and not just anyone can diagnose it but oh well. I also feel like I am possessed sometimes or when I see my childhood photos I feel like it's another person that's gone now and was replaced it's a creepy and weird feeling. Something else I'd like to add, I have noticed that I avoid mirrors in fact it seems like I actively avoid and intentionally never look at myself in the mirror it's extremely extremely hard for me to do it.
You're very welcome, I wanted to make sure that I thoroughly answered your questions and I am glad that I did so. Also, I have to say I hate when people equate DID and schizophrenia, they are very different disorders with very different symptoms and people trying to say they are the same just shows how ignorant people are of what mental illness really looks like. In fact, most people wouldn't be able to pick a person with any mental illness out of a crowd because they are usually not obvious about it. Also, we well know how people can be if they know about the DID and co-ocurrant disorders that we have and so we generally do not tell people about them, the few times we've tried have had mixed results so we feel it's better not too. Thankfully though, my husband understand as he also has DID, which makes life interesting and at times difficult. As for those online tests, while they may give you information you can then use when speaking with a professional, are not meant as a diagnostic tool so I wouldn't worry about what results you got on that too much. If you do not feel you have DID then you may not, but you could and simply be unaware of it also, so it is best to speak to a professional about your symptoms, thoughts, concerns, etc. As for the symptoms you mentioned there are many disorders that have dissociative symptoms as well as an entire spectrum of dissociative disorders with DID being at the extreme end of that spectrum, so it is possible that you have something else with dissociative symptoms or that you have DID and are unaware, again it is best to speak to a professional regarding this because as you said not just anyone can give you a diagnosis.
As for whether it's common for people to tell you you have something you do not feel you have, as someone else pointed out people like to pretend to know more than they do and just because somebody thinks something doesn't make it true, only a professional can accurately diagnose you. As for their motives for doing it it could be they are out to hurt you or spread lies about you or there could be some other reason they are doing this, have you tried telling people that this bothers you? I can't speak for others, but I am personally not offended and DID is not as rare as people think current studies show that anywhere from 1-3% of the population, depending on the source you look at, have DID and an even larger number fall somewhere on the dissociative spectrum.
I often get that feeling of looking at someone else when I look at childhood photos so you are not alone in that. As for the bit about mirrors, I do not like mirrors myself they make me very uneasy and there are others inside who will not look at themselves in a mirror at all because it makes them so uncomfortable, so I get where you are coming from. My advice for you is to speak to a professional, one who believes in DID would be best since you have some questions regarding others assessment of you, and see what they have to say. Then you will have a better idea of what is going on with you and can more easily defend against others improper diagnosis.
Kit
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I would also like to say, that like many of you have mentioned, I too have trouble making eye contact. Though, I am told this is due to having Aspergers (which, is on the autistic spectrum for anyone who doesn't know). I am the only one who has Aspergers, the others have their own diagnosis separate of the DID or have no other co-occurant disorders at all so we are all very different.
Kit