IS THIS DID? HELP ME SOMEONE?

Violarules wrote:Hi Heartstrings. It sounds like you could have DID. I would bring it up to the person you're seeing. Maybe the person can refer you to a DID specialist. I have the same problem of doubting myself since I suspect I might have it but won't know until I talk to someone. I would definitely talk to your counselor about it.

Partial wrote:You could try writing them a note about your concerns and giving it to them. That way you can think out what you want to say. It's sometimes easier to just hand them something that trying to explain it all. I did that and gave it to them at the end so I didn't have to sit there while they read it . All I can say is that from my experience your T won't just blow off your concerns, they take clients worries seriously and will try to help.

Good luck!

TodayImZeek wrote:Hi ViolaRules:

There are a few things that you might want to ask yourself to explore the possibility that you have DID.

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Do you experience gaps of time when you cannot remember anything?
People always say I have a bad memory, and its true I remember almost nothing about what has happened. But truthfully, I don't just black out and remember nothing.

Do you ever have flashbacks of past trauma?
Its strange, when me and my sister where just born (I was a baby and she was 3) my mother became very ill and we had to be looked after by a carer woman. Anyway, it was later found out that the woman was abusive to my sister physically and mentally. My sister has PTSD, but i'm not sure if I would. I remember nothing of that.

Do you display any symptoms of PTSD?
My parents both think that I do, because I was born with tortacollis and as a baby they had to stretch my neck as to correct the muscle. They both think it may have been very traumatic to a baby and that I would scream for hours about it. I remember nothing of this.

Do you hear inside voices (voices coming from within, not outside).
Well, ever since I was very little whenever I was sad or scared I would talk to myself in a warm and comforting voice. I called her logic, and she would always calm me down. I think logic might've been my first alter? But now, all my alters talk together. We will argue, and comfort eachother. Throughout the day they will make comments on whats happening and stuff.

Have you ever been depressed?
I have had a few suicide attempt in the past years. I just got out of hospital a month ago.

How often do you go to the hospital with pains and aches but doctors can't find anything wrong?
A rather major problem in my life is my sensations. I have always had them. Since forever, I don't remember not having them. I always thought it was neurological, but recently I had an mri and an neurological assessment and they all came back normal. When I sit on the floor I get weird pins and needles; like a feeling of a bell vibrating around my leg, cold water dripping, someone twisting my leg. And about 4 years ago another type started. I feel a small pressure in the back of my neck and then it builds up into my eyebrows and top of my head, then the pressure releases and waves of tingles rush down my body to m toes. This lasts for about 3 minutes and happens 3 times a day on average. The thing is, I was trying to find a pattern and it seems to only happen when Im with people. The first time it happened was when a teacher came over and asked me about the book I was reading. Everyone stared at me and I felt it happen and I was really shocked and scared and I didnt know what was happening.

Do family members ever say you act different?
Yes, my family always tell me that about 4 years ago I changed dramatically from a 'loving happy child' to a depressed recluse. I don't agree, I think just 4 years ago I began to open up to my real feeling. But I don't remember anything before how I am now.

Were you sexually abused as a child?
No I dont think so.

Do you remember things you know are not your memories or thoughts?
I don't really understand the question, but I do get confused between my daydreams and dreams and reality.

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You should answer these questions, maybe even post your answer to the questions; I am sure that you will get others to share their experiences.

TodayImZeek wrote:Hi ViolaRules:

There are a few things that you might want to ask yourself to explore the possibility that you have DID.

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Do you experience gaps of time when you cannot remember anything?
Occassionally. I do have times where I don't remember anything which makes school a hassle when the teacher is giving directions and then I don't remember the end of what was said and normally the most crucial pieces of information are given by a teacher at the end so I usually end up doing the assignment wrong or doing more than required because I didn't hear the full directions.

Do you ever have flashbacks of past trauma?
Yes I do. The trauma was my brother's but it still affected me. There was also some emotional abuse I experience from my mom and some physical where she would hit me when she was mad at me.

Do you display any symptoms of PTSD?
As far as I know, I don't but then again, I don't really know what the symptoms of PTSD, or should I say PTSS, because it was changed form Post Traumatic Stress Disorder to Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. I'd have to look into that but there are some things that trigger fear reactions that I don't always understand.

Do you hear inside voices (voices coming from within, not outside).
Yes I do. I occasionally hear voices inside my head, usually commenting on something that I'm doing or talking amongst themselves. Sometimes the voices tell me what to do and what not to do.

Have you ever been depressed?
I want to say no but truthfully, I have been for short periods of time. I'm actually ashamed to admit that I have been depressed since depression is such a misunderstood illness.

How often do you go to the hospital with pains and aches but doctors can't find anything wrong?
Never. I've never gone to the hospital with pains and aches without a known source of the pain.

Do family members ever say you act different?
Yes. My mom repeatedly states that I act differently than I did when I was younger, and the trauma I mentioned before happened when I was a child. I was very outgoing but now I'm very introverted. I have a hard time trusting people but I wonder if that's coming from someone inside and not from me.


Were you sexually abused as a child?
As far as I know, I was not. I do have a lowered self esteem, not low self esteem but lower than I would like, but I don't think it's from sexual abuse. But if I was from sexually abused and don't remember it, it would explain why sexual related topics make me extremely uneasy. I refuse to see R rated movies out of fear there will be a love scene or kissing, both of which make me shield my eyes. Even scenes where there is lovemaking but they don't show anything, I will shield my eyes and try not to listen to it. I can't even say the word sex out loud without cringing.

Do you remember things you know are not your memories or thoughts?
Yes, I do have memories that I've labeled as false memories but they could be memories that others have remembered or thought.

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You should answer these questions, maybe even post your answer to the questions; I am sure that you will get others to share their experiences.