For the teenagers!

###$ this cooperative $#%^. It's 5 am and for the first time in months I am finally eating something I like. Not a compromise that satisfies no one but the actual thing I want to eat. Peanut butter and pickle. And if you don't like it ###$ you your not getting any of it so why should I care if you don't like it. I'm 19 for Christ sake I'm not memt to have a job or a career I'm ment to be making friends working out what I want to be. Maybe traveling. Going to museums theatre cinema bowling just you know grabbing life by the horns. The others complain that I spent most time up front but like I don't ever get time to do what I want I'm always looking after her kid or doing her job or keeping their house clean (ish) I have 2 friends and I don't see them much anymore cause the bf doesn't get along with them which is fair enough ain't his cup of tea. BUT we have 2 days a week when bf ain't here do I get to see my friends? No cause we have to be busy adulting. No one is sqtesfied with this cooperative but they can't see it cause they have there arses over their heads. For the greater good we have become a bland nothing. So our wardrobe changes round a bit and are movies do to. But when was the last time pan played his pipes or Christopher the piano? When was the last time Grace sat down to cross stitch? They are all abandoning the things they love and why for what? So we can live a half life without memory gaps?
I'm just ranting but jeese
I know I can't just Waltz off and forget responsibilities but sometimes it feels like that's all I ever do.

We used to play board games with the kid every evening. I need to start doing that again.

It's tough being an adult sometimes!

I'm really glad Thea never quite managed to stay in a relationship and have RL kids, we wouldn't have coped and they'd have ended up in care when we had to go into the unit anyway.

We just have a dog or two as our 'furkids' - they've kept us stable with at least one foot in reality to meet their needs.

It must be difficult for systems that have RL partners and kids to hide your 'others' and inner worlds?

Kit

Hey, Cody girl!!!

What's up? Are you guys ok?? You were chilling after a trip, but then the next thing I heard was that Evan said Host is going through a thing and won't let you guys write on here. Bobby is worried about Evan and missing him, so I thought I'd ask.

Hope you guys work it out and can come back and hang out.

Sasha <3 <3 <3

Hi Sasha,

Host just got SUPER self-conscious and decided he didn't want to be multiple anymore. It happens sometimes but this time he stopped before EVERYTHING got TOTALLY wrecked. That's a big relief but we're still not out as much as we were. Our T is out of town - of FREAKING course!

How are you guys doing?

Cody

IainEtc wrote:Hi Sasha,

Host just got SUPER self-conscious and decided he didn't want to be multiple anymore. It happens sometimes but this time he stopped before EVERYTHING got TOTALLY wrecked. That's a big relief but we're still not out as much as we were. Our T is out of town - of FREAKING course!

How are you guys doing?

Cody

We have one that is kind of in denial about having DID and thinks she made us up. Sometimes she wants to get rid of us but also loves the inner world which she has to admit she wouldn't have if she didn't have DID!!!

Jody

Hi Cody,

It's so good to hear from you! I'm glad things didn't get totally wrecked!

Sorry your T is away. So far, our T has only gone away once since the shutdown, and saw us by zoom from his hotel room. But he has some trips planned in Sept and Oct where he might not be able to do that.

I don't know how we're doing. The husband just left on a trip--the first one without us since the shutdown, and he'll be gone for 5-6 days. Littles are freaking out and making the rest of us feel overwhelmed.

We saw our T in his office yesterday, for the first time in about a month. There were some new things there and other stuff that he moved around, so the littles had to adjust to it. He was nice, but sometimes his ideas about what will help us are just completely the opposite of what we need, so he said a couple of really upsetting things. He took them back and apologized and felt bad, so that was nice, but jeez, it's a pain to have everything go off the rails like that and have to work to get back on track. Like, dude, just be more careful!!

Anyway, the plan for today is to get a lot of stuff done from our to-do list, and then there's a movie in an outdoor park near here tonight that we just found out about, so we have to decide if we'll do that or plan something fun for the littles here at home.

Your BFF,
Sasha <3 <3 <3

Hi Sasha,

We're so glad you're still talking to us! Things are TOTALLY #######5 right now. People say they love you but they don't! They're just all ###$ up and want you to ######6 SAVE them. If you try you're wrong. If you don't you're mean. I'm TOTALLY tired of being wrong so I'm just going to ######6 be MEAN! If they don't like it TOUGH!

We're really hurting right now and it's SO good to have a friend.

Cody

Hi Cody. I'm so sorry you went through that. ###$ that person!! It's not your job to "save" anyone. You're not mean if you protect yourself and avoid getting mixed up in someone else's $#%^. ###$ them!

I hope your T is helping you sort this all out and reminding you that you're good people.

Sasha <3 <3 <3

Hi Sasha!!!

OMG! It's SO good to talk to you again. I missed you and really really REALLY need to just vent all this CRAP. Not much of a news flash but we're #######5 at doing groups. We always do the wrong thing and get hurt. It's because we try to save people and because of fight or flight (DUH!) and because it's just all TOO ######6 MUCH!!!!!

Ok we're better now.

Cody

i feel like this might be a good place to say something, give some limited info about myself and other stuff like that. i don't really know about myself though. im still figuring it out. so some of this might be confusing.

name: kat, or k
age: 16 (i think?)
birthday: i don't know
species: human
gender: male, he/him
likes: not really sure. i think i like rock music. i like staying private to myself most of the time. i prefer to be alone.
dislikes: interacting with our bodily family members. interacting with a lot of people, really. i hate to have to ask questions a lot. i also don't enjoy letting my guard down. one more thing but i won't say it because it's too revealing.
hobbies: i don't have any
favorite food: i don't know
favorite drink: i don't know
favorite song: i don't know
favorite tv show: i don't know

like i said, i don't really know about myself except for the fact that i tend to be pretty blunt. i don't know how well i get along with people because ive talked to them pretty minimally. i also have the tendency to get irritated pretty quickly. overall i'm probably not a very nice person to interact with. but i thought i would post this here anyways.

that's all for now.

-kat