Hi Violet! You also have a pretty name
Thx for sharing your experience. It sucks, and I wouldn't wish this anyone, but still it is a bit comforting, to be not that alone with it.
I guess I am also good at faking

but at the moment it feels like everything comes apart. I have to commit to stuff I am not ready to do. But I also don't want to let others down. What you describe be barely holding everything together, sounds toootally familiar
We are in process of getting a T, but I am actually not sure, if he believes in any others than some sort of moody states. So.. we will see if that helps or not. But maybe he can at least help one of our grown ups, who did front a lot, but is also very depressed, so that he is able to take over again.
It is strange, but I am quite embarrassed to even told to our closest friend, that I am not one of the guys she usually talks to. She knows that we are more than one, though. But does not know about me.
I feel like I have to pretend to be them. Did you "came out" to others as who you are?
Also thx for the link to the other thread. I will definitely have a look.
Autumn