by Amythyst » Mon Oct 15, 2018 10:59 am
Back when the body was actually around my age (16), I don't think I ever fronted. I was mostly just inside and influencing now and then. We are pretty sure I was the 'innocent happy teen' who was separated from the depressed nihilistic troubled kid that the outside world knew. But I influenced some things and I remember observing other things.
Anyways. Outwardly we seemed to come from the 'ideal family' situation. Tho a lot of that was BS cos our mum was just big on appearances. Our BF's parents were divorced and he had a really rough home situation, like the obviously rough kind, not the hidden rough kind.
He lived with his dad but his dad travelled a lot for work. So where we seemed to have loving caring very overprotective parents, he seemed to have nobody at all. For like, weeks at a time, he had no adult supervision at all. His dad would come home on weekends to fill up the fridge with groceries and pay the bills, then vanish again.
So our BF basically was a teen who had a house to himself and food provided, but no adult supervision, no adult guidance, and no adult care. Obviously, his house was Party Central and things got kinda wild there at times.
But I think deep down our BF really needed someone to look after him, needed someone to care about him. I think that's part of why we got together - our annoyingly overprotective parents with their 'perfect family' stuff, gave the impression that we were all stable and good. (Of course our parents hated him cos he was so wild and unruly and they were positive he'd be a bad influence lol. So they were never very nice to him and didn't want him around.)
Anyways I'm sharing all this because... now I feel like I'm in his position.
I've got this home here, and money to buy groceries. The only difference is I have the fulltime grownup job so I pay the bills etc. But basicaly its the same. Except this isn't party central cos I have no friends, lol.
But... sorry this is so wordy. It's just, I'm feeling like I've got no adult guidance, no grownup to care and tell me what to do and waht not to do.
I'm like, the teen who's parents have gone away and left her with a house and money and it's fun sometimes but it's also lonely and empty and confusing.
I dunno where I'm going with this. It felt like a thing for the teen thread tho. Maybe not. I guess there's not so many systems around where a teen is the 'host' (don't like that word tho) and there's just very little in the way of adults around to help?
MD Teens your system is mostly young people too, do you have stuff like this going on?
Sorry for rambling and all.
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