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Amythyst wrote:Hey Lucas,

I dunno if there's any right way to 'be an alter'? Like, I just be me? I dunno. I think that's all there is, like just be me & try to get along with my headmates. *shrug*

Viola

I read you're resting in now and tired. Have a good rest. Hope you find this when you're back again feelin better.

There's loads of alter stuff everyone just does and I don't understand it. Sometimes I do that stuff too.. or that's what Flor has told. Like.. when we had the eye problem one day, I dunno if you've heard about it, but we did. I remember being in health care center twice and that we showered and cleaned up at home, Flor's home like she told. Then she told we were at the hospital later on and it was gonna be way more unpleasant, and we needed to make sure Leon doesn't get scared and keep him safe in there.

She wrote we agreed Sami is with Flor, he can do things when nobody wants to but it needs to be done anyway. Yea, I get that. I don't get what she wrote I did, that I took Leon inside. It makes sense and all why we'd do that, Leon is kind of like.. with me somewhere, but not in where I live, but somewhere and I know it myself only because I saw it and Flor saw it too, but I dunno where and what that means. ..and like, that I'd "take Leon and carry him inside". I'm like WUUT? I dunno how to do that! That's alter stuff. I'm like all ... just WUUT? Where do I get him and how and how do we get inside and where. Like in my apartment or what? I dunno how to do that. All I know is my life, and sometimes I'm here instead.

LUCAS

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I'M NOT AVAILABLE LATER!

I'm not angry, I'm restless. Dyou know the feeling when walls are gonna fall on you and you need to jump on furniture that you won't go crazy?

That's me.

I don't have a name but you can call me random. It's not my name, but you can call me that. Nameless sounds like someone put too much effort into trying to sound dramatic, and I'm not anonymous either, because I am somebody.

I like this song and m/v. G-Dragon - Crooked

Lyrics in E

Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight I'll be crooked
Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight I'll be crooked

[Verse 1]
I scream and get dizzy
I vent out of boredom
To other couples
I start fights for no reason
Like a town gangster
Sometimes, I purposely
Shake my leg, crookedly

[Verse 2]
The main characters of the movie
Called this world is you and me
A lonely island, lost and wandering
The empty streets are
Filled with those who are alone
Unlike my heart
The weather is so damn nice

[Pre-Chorus]
I used to believe in you alone
And I was happy
But like a joke, I am left alone
You used to promise me
With your pinky finger
But in the end

[Chorus]
Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight I'll be crooked
Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight I'll be crooked

[Verse 3]
I’ll put on thick eyeliner
Use a whole can of hairspray
Leather pants, leather jacket with a frown
I want to hide my pain
And become even more crooked
So you can feel sorry
I’ll spit toward the sky

[Verse 4]
You’re scared of my crude words and rough eyes
But actually, I’m afraid
I want to go back but
I have nowhere to go
I want to love but no one to love
What am I supposed to do?
I can’t turn it back

[Pre-Chorus]
I used to believe in you alone
And I was happy
But like a joke, I am left alone
You used to promise me
With your pinky finger
But in the end

[Chorus]
Nothing ever lasts forever
In the end, you changed
There is no reason, no sincerity
Take away such a thing as love
Tonight, I’ll be crooked
Leave me alone
I was alone anyway
I have no one, everything is meaningless
Take away the sugar-coated comfort
Tonight I'll be crooked

[Outro]
Will you not say anything
For me tonight?
I didn’t know being alone would
Be this hard (I miss you)
Will you be my friend tonight?
On this good day
This beautiful day
This day where I miss you
Tonight I'll be crooked

#fourteen

Hi Sasha,

Are you still around? Are we still friends? I got kind of screwed up when we went to the new T and I stopped the forum. That was kind of stupid but I do stupid stuff sometimes. You're still my friend and I'm sorry I ghosted on you.

Cody

Hi Cody!!

It's late here, so I'm really not supposed to be writing, but FOR SURE we're still friends!!!

I've missed you, but I don't think I've been around much either. On the forum or in life. (I'm not sure what's up with that--I guess the littles have been needing a lot of time and attention. Something is up with them I think).

But I'm glad you're back!!!

Your BFF,
Sasha <3 <3 <3

SASHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm SO glad you're still my friend! I missed you. When we changed Ts I was like seriously messed up for MONTHS. I didn't want the new T to be any good but if she was bad I was going to be in her face SO fast. My head was screwed up. I'm better now. I even talked to the new T. I even kind of like her.

What's going on with you? What's the thing with the littles in your system? Littles can be the BIGGEST PITA! They're also cute sometimes.

Got to go. Host wants the laptop back (wish I had my own).

Totally your friend,

Cody

Hey Cody, hey Sasha,

Me & V2 missed seeing you both on the forums. Glad to see you're back.

Viola

Oh, GOSH! You're making me emotional. I was not expecting this much love, support and welcomes. Sadly I'm not able to answer all of you individually, but I'm truly honored to be recognized like this.

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Yes, there's hint of sarcasm in there.

HI! I'M NEW IN HERE!

I'm still not angry, just restless.

random
#fourteen

Hey random, sorry I didn't see your post. Wasn't trying to like ignore you or whatever.

I wasn't around for a day or 2 and came back & saw Sasha & Cody's posts came up as 'new'.

Viola

HEY RANDOM

I liked G-Dragon. Have you ever heard of King and Country? They are a bit softer than my normal fare but I like the lyrics to "burn the ships" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pOVrOuKVBuY
It's become our healing anthem.

[Verse 1: Luke Smallbone]
How did we get here?
We're cast away on a lonely shore
I can see in your eyes, dear
It's hard to take for a moment more
We've got to

[Pre-Chorus: Joel Smallbone]
Burn the ships, cut the ties
Send a flare into the night
Say a prayer, turn the tide
Dry your tears and wave goodbye

[Chorus: Joel and Luke Smallbone]
Step into a new day
We can rise up from the dust and walk away
We can dance upon the heartache, yeah
So light a match, leave the past, burn the ships
And don't you look back

[Verse 2: Luke Smallbone]
Don't let it arrest you
This fear, this fear of fallin' again
And if you need a refuge
I will be right here until the end
Oh, it's time to

[Pre-Chorus: Joel Smallbone]
Burn the ships, cut the ties
Send a flare into the night
Say a prayer, turn the tide
Dry your tears and wave goodbye

[Chorus: Joel and Luke Smallbone]
Step into a new day
We can rise up from the dust and walk away
We can dance upon the heartache, yeah
So light a match, leave the past, burn the ships
And don't you look back

[Bridge: Joel Smallbone]
So long to shame, walk through the sorrow
Out of the fire into tomorrow
So flush the pills, face the fear
Feel the weight disappear
We're comin' clean, we're born again
Our hopeful lungs can breathe again
Oh, we can breathe again

[Chorus: Joel and Luke Smallbone]
Step into a new day
We can rise up from the dust and walk away
We can dance upon the heartache, yeah
So light a match, leave the past, burn the ships
Step into a new day
We can rise up from the dust and walk away
We can dance upon our heartache, yeah
So light a match, leave the past, burn the ships
And don't you look back

[Outro: Luke Smallbone]
And don't you look back
And don't you look back

King and country is the sort of stuff we end up listening to when grace and I are blendy.

Personally I prefer The Dammed (their guitarist is awsome!) Ramstein , sex pistols, Addam Ant, T-rex, the jam etc...



HEY EVERYBODY

something weird happened today.

I was going for a stroll when a couple of Jocks ran past, totally ignored me of course. I wasn't doing anything to get attention just strolling along minding my own buisness. Then some more less athletic lads came past at a slower but still reasonable jog. I figured it was somesort of running club.... Then some boys who looked like they would rather be inside came dawdling into view. To a man (or should that be boy?) as soon as they saw me they started to run smiled, waved or said hi in that hiii like to know you better way as the went past, one even stopped to explain he had taken a breather because "I am physicaly week but emotionally strong" --- wait was that a chat up line???----- I couldn't help giggling. I meen it was sweet but biologicaly I am old enough to be their mother!

When I look in the mirror I think we look old not old crone old but definatly housewife -school run- mum type of old.

Clearly these boys didn't thinks so!

I've been fronting all day is it possible that we as a physical body look younger when I'm out? I didn't even have my make up on.....

Just wierd.

any of you guys get mistaken for being younger than the biological age?

Mo

Hey Mo,

That's pretty cool. I don't really know what we look like to other people?

Like to me, I think the body looks younger than it is, but it still looks way older than I do, older than I feel? And I've seen in like selfies, there's differences. Like we can usually tell who took a selfie cos we recognize them even tho its the same face & stuff.

But yeah when it comes to how other people see us, we're clueless. Its a thing we've been thinking about tho, maybe start a thread on it at some point cos we know even when we think we're seeing like the 'objective truth' in a mirror, we're pretty sure we don't. Like we think there's stuff we see 'wrong'.

Anyways, yeah its pretty cool they were seeing you different. If you're into guys that is.

Viola