My thoughts on mental illness and doctors

A doctor tells you are mentally ill and need medication. The doctor is saying that because that is how their system is set up. They are there only because they have estabished a practice where they see patients. According to their system and their liability, and due to the fact that 99% of doctors who practice in the field of psychiatiry treat with medications, they are required in the U.S. to prescribe medication if you go in there and you agree with them that you have a disorder, and you agree to take the medication as they prescribe. If instead, the doctors blamed your “illness” on yourself and prescribed watching cartoons, and that was their liability, everyone in psychiatric hospitals would be watching cartoons, “or else”. People who have dissociative identity disorder, if they do not have bipolar, usually contracted that at a young age to cope with some form of “abuse”. Now nobody in the medical field would say that one can completely alter a mind from childhood and to have these people with DID to go on a medication regime to alter them, and that is not how any psychiatrist thinks, because medication does not help people with DID. That’s who they are. They are usually able to function in society. Now somewhere along the line, those with bipolar disorder developed “depression” and “mania”. Somebody with DID could easily switch to an alter that doesn’t have these things, because some alters actually are depressed and display all the symptoms of depression including suicidal thoughts. But because they are able to switch to a different alter, that is no way in shape depressed, feels depressed, or looks depressed, tells me that depression and mania are not “biological” inherently something wrong with the brain. Even psychiatrists today say that depression and mania are not the result of “chemical imbalances” in the brain. Nearly all psychiatrists have abandoned the notion of “chemical imbalance”, but they will often say that to patients so that the patient will have an understanding of why they are taking the meds. The meds do have an effect on the mind to some extent, just like alcohol has an effect on the mind, and if you are drunk, I don’t care who you are, at some level of intoxication, you cannot drive a car without severely endangering yourself. So the meds affect the brain and the mind. Now because someone with DID can switch to an alter without depression, shows that the mind is capable of taking on these things such as depresssion or mania or whatever. The brain and the mind are confronted with something, and the person reacts according to their experience and the experience they have, and the brain forms these things such as depression into the mind and people, many people, display these things, otherwise, there would be no psychiatric profession. Now as a child, as a person with DID myself, I did not confront the abuse from a young age and sit back and say I cannot do anything, and just become depressed, or run around giddy, and say “everything’s alright” because things were not alright for my safety. My mind split, alters formed, and I was able to take the abuse, and switch to people that appeared to have no threat of abuse when I was in grade school. However, to fight off certain things from my abuser, I developed an alter that was an animal, that turned into a monster around people that would abuse me. This monster disarms anybody that threatens me, and any abuser respects that. People respect that you would stand up for yourself and fight, you would fight with the sure notion that the other person would kill you, because I remember knowing that I would be killed, and I attacked my abuser when he came at me one time. He did not kill me but overpowered me, and I went back into a trance when he tortured me for several hours. However, that monster was not killed, and every time after that, I fought him, even though, with amnesia, he would overpower me. But out in the real world, you are not defenseless. I don’t care what people think whern I walk around like an animal and I admit, people are probably afraid of me. The alternative, is to die. To go into a dssociative trance, and walk around petrieified and with fear that somebody will criticise me or I will lose my job because of my outward appearance. If I started to think that way, that I am defenseless, and I can be controlled by others, well, that leads to death. I have been depressed before, and I have had suicidial thoughts in the past, but I fought out of it, and those were alters lamenting the abuse that I suffered.

dont have much to add, but just wanted to say wow :3 good rant. and we can definitely see where you're coming from here.

I second Familyof3.

greenpurple wrote:Now as a child, as a person with DID myself, I did not confront the abuse from a young age and sit back and say I cannot do anything, and just become depressed, or run around giddy, and say “everything’s alright” because things were not alright for my safety. My mind split, alters formed, and I was able to take the abuse, and switch to people that appeared to have no threat of abuse when I was in grade school.

However, to fight off certain things from my abuser, I developed an alter that was an animal, that turned into a monster around people that would abuse me. This monster disarms anybody that threatens me, and any abuser respects that. People respect that you would stand up for yourself and fight, you would fight with the sure notion that the other person would kill you, because I remember knowing that I would be killed, and I attacked my abuser when he came at me one time. He did not kill me but overpowered me, and I went back into a trance when he tortured me for several hours.

However, that monster was not killed, and every time after that, I fought him, even though, with amnesia, he would overpower me. But out in the real world, you are not defenseless. I don’t care what people think whern I walk around like an animal and I admit, people are probably afraid of me. The alternative, is to die.[*] To go into a dssociative trance, and walk around petrieified and with fear that somebody will criticise me or I will lose my job because of my outward appearance. If I started to think that way, that I am defenseless, and I can be controlled by others, well, that leads to death. I have been depressed before, and I have had suicidial thoughts in the past, but I fought out of it, and those were alters lamenting the abuse that I suffered.

[*]I like and respect very much what you've written. I wouldn't have loved any less someone who would've done this for them selves. Quite the contrary. My admiration and love would have grown.

I'm glad you fought back, I'm glad you keep fighting back.

Good rant Agree that medications are given out too easily but aren't the answer.

Love the bit where you say they could prescribe watching cartoons all day....in all fairness, for some of us that is just what we need, even if only for a few days, to calm our mind down, relax, and allow us to enjoy the moment, even if it is with the brain of a child.

If you are so sure medication is not for you, then simply don't go to a psychiatrist. Go to a licensed counselor or clinical psychologist. If they think medication would help you they can refer you to a psychiatrist.

*Trigger Warning*

Actually, I lied. I cannot kid myself. I never stood up to him, only once in my twenties. This particular torture was not in any way shape or form physical, but you're not going to believe me, but it involved a code word when I stood up to him. In my childhood, he injected me with drugs, and he had an electroshock machine that he used on my mother when she stood up to him. But that was not the torture. The particular torture, that was not physical, was so diabolical that I will not describe it. The code word caused possession by him, in which I believed that I was my father, and I deny anything that I said or did when I was under his possession. How he did this, I will not describe, like I said it was not physical torture by itself.