confusing question from therapist tw

again....i am confused...

i saw my therapist again today...and in the beginning or middle of a conversation, which was not funny or sad or anything(i know this much)
i started smiling and laughing...she continued to talk...and then asked what i was laughing about
i said i didn't know...and she continued to talk....i continued to laugh a little..smile etc..as she talked and then she asked again what was funny...and then she asked who she was talking to...who was laughing. i thought what a stupid question...but then she asked me to repeat what she said..and i said she asked me what was funny..and she said, see, you do remember stuff...BUT i can't remember anything of the other stuff she talked about during that time, i only heard her voice...(i didn't say anything about it)

and then i suddenly felt strange...everything was different, i felt bad and different...and now i feel exhausted again...
i tend to suddenly laugh in a conversation...but i don't know why, can't remember why
i don't think i could handle the question that my therapist asked...like who she was talking to....it was me, but the question triggered something or something...?

This happen to me nearly every time my wife and I are in couple's counseling. My trauma therapist calls it a "cover story," a coping mechanism when the conversation begins to hit too close to home. I protect myself from my feelings by having my child alter step up to front. I am not aware of the conversation between my wife and our psychologist because my 8 year old alter is not able to understand them. All I hear are "Charlie Brown adult voices," (Wha Wha, Wha Wha Wha) as he giggles at things he sees at in the office or bursts into uncontrollable laughter to disrupt the conversation.

We used to have this a lot with our old t. Terrible.

it's actually kind of weird to see your post, because I thought I was the only one who did this!

It's extremely uncomfortable when it happens, but my T is kind of used to it now. She does sometimes ask me "Who am I talking to?" I usually just shake my head "I don't know" because I don't like answering those questions, and everyone here is still be quite secretive (Even a year later /sigh)

When it happens to me, I say sorry to my T, but I can't control it, so it just happens. At least you (and I) know we aren't alone!

I have this happen too. If instead of saying I don't know, if I wait for an answer from inside, an alter may speak up.

Una+ wrote:If instead of saying I don't know, if I wait for an answer from inside, an alter may speak up.

I have begun to see this too. As my System host and the dominant alter, I can "miss" what others are saying...unless I make a point to listen.