Angels and Ghosts and Imaginary friends?!

A little bit about me
I am 17 and for most of my life I have been mentally healthy as far as I know, though I do think I suffered from Major Depression for about two or three years but I was never diagnosed. As a child I did have an “imaginary friend” this imaginary friend was very close to me but I was convinced he was real. As I grew older things like “imaginary friends” became a thing of the past. But a few years ago I felt a presence very strong in my room. It was a “ghost” the same one who was my imaginary friend as a child. I can sense where he is. He says his same is Adam (but he lies a lot and changes names frequently). As I said I can “sense” where he is but it is usually outside of my body. We can talk to each other (I can’t hear him but I can feel his emotions and feel his answers). He can “possess” me and take over my actions but it is always consensual and I have no amnesia of the event. He loves me dearly and I also love him. Adam always tells me he is my guardian angel and that he’s not a part of my mind or anything of the sort so I generally listen to him but one could understand why I could express concern and seek advice from this community. Please be nice when talking about Adam do not call him a demon. It took a lot for both of us to write here. Being a fairly non-religious (but open minded) person I just want an opinion from someone who understands.

I also wanted to say that I experence tinnitus on a regular basis but I have never thought anything of it? (It seemed relevant)

All sounds like things I've seen here before. Try this It's a good place to start.

Not everyone has amnesia, what you describe sounds like co consciousness, where you both are aware of going on while one is in control.

Welcome to the forums .

Hi thank you that was really helpful as a good starting point. I scored a 31. I am open to the idea of this being DID but Adam dosent think so. The thing I've knoticed is that I've never been through a significant traumatic experence. And there was no defining point of when Adam came into my life. It's good to be here on the forum!

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Hello Adam, Welcome to you as well .

I would recommend reading through this forum and the DDNOS forums, see what you guys relate to.

Brackets work, also alot of people will use colors to differentiate as well.

If you guys have any questions feel free to ask, I'll answer as well as I can as a singleton .

Thank you! You've been an awesome help. I'm a bit new to posting on forums haha

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This is an interesting debate that's been going on, more like a discussion, with Alex and I and sometimes my family. I'll try to keep it simple (I tend to be a novelist lol) so I'll bulletpoint this:

-I do NOT believe all DID is demonic possession.
-I DO believe some cases (again, SOME) are really demonic possession.
-Too often the above are flip-flopped, misdiagnosed, and mistreated. It's frustrating.
-Angels are not known to lie, ever, and in the traditional understanding we humans have on the species, angels (being God-breathed into existence) don't actually have the capacity to decieve.
-Demons lie like people breathe.
-In many cases, a demon can appear very handsome/beautiful, very loving, very caring....because who would willingly open up to a monster?

Alex and I started this continual discussion because while neither of us think his DID has anything to do with demonic possession, we did have a few months where demonic things did happen. We both agreed recently that our time in WA was very spiritual and very creepy. I won't go into details (trigger risk) but he wasn't hallucinating everything. I saw it, too. Later on I found out our neighbor was a wiccan high priestess. Whoops.

In your case, I would strongly encourage you to tread carefully. You felt a presence outside your own body? And it was very similar to a ghost? That's usually red warning flags for something spiritual, and not in the good way. If he really is a demon, he will do and say anything and everything to make you love him, want him, accept him....and in return, he will slowly but steadily work on destroying you. I know what you mean by not audibly hearing, but feeling and understanding the communication and emotions. I've had my own experiences with that. Sad to say, usually demonic. (Side note: I'm not comfortable saying I'm a professional exorcist, but I've had enough experiences to lend some solid advice )

I suppose. I don't think he would be a demon though (if we are going to go this route), just because he has never done anything to harm me. Ever. Nor has he ever done anything to derail my life or destroy me. He offers me good advice and does nothing but make me feel safe. This has been going on for years and all instances of "possession" were at my consent and I had full memory (a bit hazy) of the event. I don't understand what he would gain at all from helping me through depression for years haha. But again I suppose it is a possibility. Even if he were though I think I would trust him anyways. Just because He is really the only person I trust and rely on.

Hello you guys,

Welcome to the forum.

Hi Adam, why do you change your names frequently? Are there more than one with you?

I think it is a very good idea to explore this forum and see what things you guys feel you can relate to as Partial said.

For me it also sounds as co-consciousness. And the hazy feeling, completely normal. Some people with DID report feeling they alters outside of their body, specially when they are kids, so you guys may explore the forum, and explore yourselves so you can better understand what's going on.

Have you thought about consulting a counsellor at school? Or telling your parents? Would they be willing to help?

Take care you guys, and welcome again.

Sea

While not exactly the same as for me his appearance was not random, my protector, Marvolo, lived outside my body for three years before he learnt to take over. After neither of us knew what he was for years, we finally concluded that he is no entity but created by my mind and an alter. That doesn't mean Adam is, of course, but i do recognise your story quite a lot.

I'm glad he's helping you and cares for you *hug*. When I had no-one, Marvolo was also my only comfort and I can never repay him enough.