
After a day of sadness, I started pulling my hair and slapping myself in the face. ( a fairly new development ) . I was upset that I was at the end of my college funds and I asked mom if I could borrow money to see the Doctor. She said yes ( I always pay them back ). Then my father who had dementia called and started getting mad and telling me that he was not going to pay for me to go and see my grandchildren ( who live in the same town as my Dr. ) I tried to explain to him that they were in the same town and he would not listen so I just said calmly " Dad, I can't talk to you like this and argue with you, I will talk to you later." And I hung up the phone.
I waited about ten minutes and called to ask my mom why dad was so upset with me, my brother then took the phone from mom and put it on speaker phone, and I don't know why he would except that mom and dad exagerate (sp) things. So I told mom she was the only one I could turn to and the rest of the family doesn't really care. ( I have 6 brothers and sisters ). Then I started crying and told her sometimes I want to slap my face and pull my hair and I didn't think I could take it anymore, and I felt like taking my life sometimes. Well the whole family who heard the conversation, and most of them heard it, said that I said "I'm going to gouge my face with scissors and cut off all my hair".
The problem is I don't remember saying that at all and I swore to the police officer and to my family that i didn't say those things.
Was I in an altered state? Or could I have been railroaded?
I promise on my grandchildren's lives that I remember saying that I was going to slap my face and pull my hair, not what they said. Is there any way to get a phone recording from the phone company or something so I could have some peace of mind and know what happened?
And if I am in an altered state like that, what could someone do to or say to bring me out of it?
Any help would be so very appreciated.
Thank you,
Lightbearer