Hey all.
So I have a new protector that came forward about a month ago. It appears that what made her come forward was my hysterectomy, which was three weeks ago today. It's a long story, but she seems to be a protector in the classical sense of the word. She is solely here to protect and does so using rage and addictive behaviors. My hormones are messed up and I have been experiencing a lot of rage and grief and she is right there to try and "help." She states that she doesn't care if her actions are destructive to me or the other parts, she says she has to do what she has to do to keep me from feeling pain. I am unable to convince her that a new way of protecting me would be best. My question is this. Is it POSSIBLE that she can have any empathy at all, or is it possible that she honestly doesn't care and just exist to protect no matter what the consequences? My T was talking today about whether or not this part carries shame. I said I don't think she carries any memories or feelings other than rage. What I heard today after session while thinking about this is "I DON'T HAVE ANY F'N SHAME!" My response to that was "Thou dost protest too much."
Another part has said that she split off of her during a particularly traumatic event and this protector hasn't confirmed or denied. I do wonder if she didn't exist earlier but used different ways to protect me but was flying under the radar and nobody was aware of her but during this traumatic event she became so rageful that she was then noticed.
Does anyone have any ideas or insights about this? All of my other protectors have come to the point where they are actually very kind, compassionate parts who want nothing more than to help. This one frankly scares me a bit. She clearly doesn't think I'm a capable adult, and she has made it clear she will do WHATEVER it takes to protect me, even if that means kill the system. Needing some guidance here.
Thanks!!