angry parts tw

hi


i saw my T again today, and she seemd somewhat "surprised" that all of my anger isn't coming from out of the blue, that it could be triggered by external things. Both things can happen, out of "nothing" or by a comment, or something else.

i don't have huge anger issues, although i have a quick temper, i often have no memory what has happend during an argument though.

since my T has talked about parts and different parts doing different things i have thought about DID, but another T i had last summer said i had something close to it, but not entierly did, since
i didn't change my name etc.

so i was wondering how angry parts of you are like...? and how does anger work for your? is it triggered by external things or something else?
i feel that the angry part of me is a version of my mother. Like my anger is someone else.
somtimes i can hear what used to be her voice(now it's someone elses) and i get angry, out of the blue.
like...i can be ok with the situation, but then the voice comes and there's no stopping it.

I have a couple of parts who "do" anger. Or more aptly, rage.

There's an undercurrent of anger, like on a low boil, all the time in me.

I have a protective, angry girl who lashes out before I know it's coming. It is so hard. I've apologized to people a kazillion times over my life. Of course, for the longest time, I didn't realize this was an insider. But yeah, right out of the blue, Wham. From zero to sixty, just so fast, rage-filled words erupt. It's really hard to deal with.