Not sure if I belong here

Situation normal. You are doing just fine!

This isn't fun, I want to run away from things and just give up. I've been able to manage just fine for the past few years, and it seems that opening my mouth has taken odd bothersom symptoms and made them much worse. I have the strong desire to be "normal" but is it worth all this to get there? Things where really bad for a really long time, and I can't stand the thought of things reaching that point again with a kid and husband who is gone for weeks at a time. That doesn't even beg to mention the issues it could cause in my professional life.