surviving revolving door at parents house visit

Hi there,

We want to say sooo much first that it is it is in a muddle to come out. Last night my partner, told me that she recalled to me several times, over and over, during the night that I had been having a conversation in many voices about what she couldn't work out. She knew a child was there giggling, a voice telling the child not to and another voice talking in unknown words. Not with my partner but just with her in the room.this is the first time she has heard my alters talk in a group. She knows I have inside meetings but had never been privy to one!

Also Elliott yesterday, spoke to and is now very taken on my partner. She took him to a toy shop and he bought a toy digger truck that makes noises. I lost time tip him talking to her several times in a positive way on the way down. She is taken by him to which is great because up to thus point it had ail been scary for my partner because she is afraid of damaging Elliott by saying the wrong thing but because the last time he cane out and she froze and became all nervous and stuttered and things he finds it funny and laughs at her.it's the first time an adult has been the nervous one!

I had to go a loo , me river.Sam took over. He did turn on light or lock door at 2 am and or dad came up stairs and went to come in. Our Dad jumped out he skin Sam jumped and shouted but I wasn't scared!
if Sam hadn't been upfront it would have been very different.

Today we went, me, my mum and partner and a friend to a trip and had lots of fun.the sort everyone's inner child loves if 10 or 70! It was great but in the car each way for the 2 hour drive each way was horrible.I felt terrible for my partner and mum because who ever it was that was out and I'm not sure who it was but they were so bloody. . . . Moaney and very reactive and stressed. Not Sam because he is so confident he knows he is right. It hurt my head feeling such intense emotions and I I couldn't escape because I was stuck in the car. Even when I said I have to sleep, she, the alter would keep going. My poor partner and mum. I was stuck inside just wanted to push a mute button.

It is 6 pm and I have skipped dinner and gone to bed.I hate it because I love spending time with my parents but not time getting at them.I can't keep switching, it is exhausting!

Sea-we read your post over and over last night and wet came in and out of being.even though we didn't reply what you said got is through because we knew wee had you there.thinking about us on and off line. You are so lovely. me and Sam haven't been able to talk, in fact, since we have came to visit, I don't think any of us have been able to say much of consequence to each other.we don't seem to have the mental strength to connect.

Talking to my partner and her being privey to or internal debates is really weird but liberating at the same time. The reason she had to keep telling me is because I seem to get amnesia following the minutes after a switch, is that normal? So I am aware when I switch back.my partner will tell me all about it bit I forget because she tells me about it to close to the switch. . . .

Thank you for checking up V. I , we, really appreciate it.
X

You guys!!!!

So glad to read you, and so glad so many good things are happening. Elliot with your partner, and buying stuff. And so good you got to talk to her as well about what's going on. I'm glad it's been liberating for you.

I'm so glad you knew I was thinking of you, I hadn't been able to come in here, and didn't want you to feel forgotten, 'coz you are not.

As of now, relax, don't worry about replying. Whenever you have time, and head to do it, do it.

If it's been so many of you out I can only imagine how exhausting that must have been.

I wish your stay there continue on a good tone, and have a safe trip back home.

Sea

sea, Eko said he will never forget when you said about his first ever communication that was even thigh was full of sooo much pain you saw the pain you saw the beauty.without that one word beautiful. He may well not be well be part of of system again again, as the little wispa he is now. He wanted me to say this because as we read your post we saw the beauty in your writing. my partner literally just said I am so glad you found that forum, you get so much from it. A thank you to every one.

I sleep with my Android phone next to me. My alters love the constant access to the forum. I am always waking up because some part of me had fallen asleep and his me on the head with the phone! Lol

We are going to go to toys r us when we home-ours the UK's biggest department store for kids toy's! You get to play with bikes in the store! Not that your ment to hehe yay!

little Claire got some form cut out shapes for crafts with lots of sparkle colours on!
Eko is yet to pick a toy. . . Is very quiet, don't blame the wee lad.giving Him time.

We are going home tomorrow and actually,I river really sooo don't want to. I lovveeeee my mum so much. I feel like I wasted this visited. One of my big fears and thir Littles its our my will die. The idea really really feels us all with terror. Most days. this is one of you're reasons Sam went mad at or t for talking about our mum the other day. No one goes there! Lol.


Thank you once again. We consider you a friend, which its a strange concept a stranger but we feel we know you in the right places!

Take care
X

Eko, you made me water my eyes. ... My heart is full of joy. I remember what you wrote, and I saw the beauty of your feelings. I've shown it to some close people, it's so deep, its meaning is so deep. I remember all I wanted to do was make your suffering stop.

I'm so glad that he's now little wispa, and he is part of the team, and now can express him self and get to choose toys at Toys R Us. A friend of mine said that it was like paradise going there when he was a child.

This forum has so much value. Every time I come and read, and ask and get answers, I'm in awe at the power strangers who wanna listen and who care for others. The power of empathy, understanding what others are going through... or sometimes not even understanding, but being willing to read and care. I felt hold by the words I read here, when I thought I was falling.

Wanted to mention about your last post that it must've been amazing for your partner to listen the meeting your system was having. I would've been so excited!!

So funny that Elliot had made your partner nervous.

Ah, about getting amnesia minutes after the switch I think it's normal. Una has mentioned that trying to remember the borders of the switch is kind of hard (I think). But it's becoming easier as she's worked on it.

I hope you get a safe trip home. And I totally get you about one of your biggest fears, maybe one day we'll get to talk about death; but not today. I consider you guys my friends as well, I'm so glad we've met.

Sea

-- Mon Mar 03, 2014 10:54 pm --

PS: Maybe one day little Eko, in your signature, won't have but instead .

We survived!

Thank you for your support, we said it once and we said it again. It just ment so much.

Myself and partner have not had such a stressful time with did it had been horrible horrible horrible. The drive home was not present. My was so tired and who can blame her, it had all just been to much and her parents were still at our house waiting and spending the night because they had been looking after the kids/animals.

Things I left out of this thread and I think its because I/O we had dissociated them to cope through the weekend because we otherwise would not of.

We had to come out to or in laws because or behaviour was so out crazy it was drugs or did.

We found out the night before wee had left, my mum had just find out her estranged mum had died 3 years ago and no one in the family, including her own dad and over a dozen other family members had told her.there is not talking and there is that.thing is no one knows why the mother stopped talking to them either. No family feud, but that side is a bit crazy. So my nan had died and my little was so sad and I was having all the memories ABMs feelings and had to shut it all down. . .


The drama. .


Going to have a real type on a computernot a tiny phone tomorrow.

Cheers
River n company

I'm glad that you survived! I'm also glad that your in laws know about your DID. I hope that you and your SO get some well deserved rest and relaxation.