falling

I feel like I am sharing a body right now. Usually I just feel like one, but today I feel myself as 2. I wish I lmew who it was necausde its making me dizzy. i am looking at thinga I have venver seen before. and when I was coming abckl to my desk from the break room, I nearly walked into the wall because I was looking in two different directions.

Oh yeah, been there before. Thats usually how I feel when I'm in a half switch with Frank, usually caused by exhaustion.

Lalalark,
I think that is a pretty typical experience when one of your alters only manages to surface but can't take the host's place. But, I am not a professional, this is based on my many years of DID.

Sweetngentle

I am scared. I feel like something so bad is going to happen. I wish I knew ...
I am here to stop it from being bad. You just have to trust me.
But how do I trust you when I dont even know your name. How do I know you wont be a bad one?
Because I havent done anything to hurt you and I am only here to help and protect you.
But what are you protecting me from? I am at work... we are safe....
But today is a memory day a bad day and already you are starting to have memories that I dont want you to be upset over right now.
I need to be here to help you through.
But I am not upset at all... I can do this.
You think you can, but you need me.

hi lark.
we fall every day. land in a hospital at least once a week.
you titled this falling. often, like today, we were so dizzy that we fell of the chair onto the floor. we swish alda tym n kant halt. wer dusands ob usunz heer. den usunz dunno wahappenz n gits da gobedtruk ta oopitale gen. lastym dey nikt verstehn je. vas ees das lo ken usunz nikt? den tink usunz spreckt russky oder armenisky, aber nikt, oder nikt ukrany. aber usuns worter den dibarisk, dem nikt verstehn. was nous do? vee piano den falden des ophthalz lo ken it.
dis Ksanochka

Few days ago, I also was having bad triggers week/day... and I was really exhausted. I suddenly had a flashback that I never remembered before. It was so intense that I felt sick and Alyssie appeared but didn't switch completely... it felt like looking each other in the morror infinitely. It felt so sick! Everything around me had trailers and slow motion. It was like I was on LSD or something. I stood up from sitting on the couch and collapsed on the floor. I curled up and got lost in my flashback once again. I 'woke' up. I was still all curled up and trembling. WAIT! This room has been remodelled? WTF! I got up panicking a bit because everything looked so different. I realized I was old. I thought it was winter in 1997 or something. It literally felt like I jumped from this time to 2006... extremely confusing. My bf was sweet enough to remind me what I was doing.. like I have a job... give me the date and year, etc. to get me reoriented. Alyssie was half surfacing with me still... so I felt dizzy, sick, and scared for rest of night.

It was the major espiode for me.... :S It seems like we all have bad memory day lately...

Yeah, we all have our weird/###$ up days. I'm not sure if I would go as far as comparing it to LSD, cuz I have a friend who's done LSD 3 times, kept a journal each time, and its some really weird $#%^. Funny as hell though. "Jordan wants to talk to me, but I am a wizard."

I never have done LSD, but I was trying to explain how intense it was... and I couldn't think of anything to compare with so I chose LSD. *shrugs*

I heard LSD is a weird $#%^, but did u know that LSD was used to treat anixety disorder?

Nope. Learn something new everday.

I got one for ya, cocaine was the original key ingredient in Coca-Cola, hence the name.

LSD makes you see weird $#%^, colors change, etc. Which makes sense since is a hardcore hallucenagenic.

is caffeine a hallucinogenic?....... because thats the only drug I have taken today to wake up and I think I am hallucinating...
But I think its because of no sleep...
the caffeine hasnt really had a chance to do the trick...
Man i am tired...