Hello and some thanks

Hello, I'm partial, and I was just dx'ed with DPD. I have suspicions that there may be more to it than that, but I'll get to that in a bit. I wanted to start by saying thank you to the community here. This is what helped me to help look in this direction and eventually get where I am today. I see alot of new faces here since I was last here and alot of old ones and I'm glad to see you all.
The current question I'm having is whether DPD contains all the symptoms I'm seeing or if I need to keep looking into higher for dissociative disorders. Mostly are odd feelings and intrusive thoughts. The odd feelings are... a kind of twinge in the back of my head and a feeling/questioning of where I am, even though the location is familiar something similar can happen seeing myself in a mirror although that is less common. The intrusive thoughts are similar to what is described in online pretests. They seem to interject opinions and comments on things I'm doing, although the feeling of separation and amount of a "voice" these thoughts have varies, and is sometimes hard to distinguish.

Well that's all I can think of for right now, thank you for the help you have rendered in the past and thank you for any help you can/will render in the future.

Hey and greetings, I'd be one of those new faces

Some of what you describe for sure is dpd -the mirror thing is a classic.
The thought interjection sounds like it could be a did thing BUT in DPD yourself is
The thing that dose not seem real in the world and sooo even your own voice in your head or out loud can seem like it's not your own. I know it because I have it alllllll the time-I often look to see who said it or respond! However also having alters complicates the matters.

I can tell the difference because the voices sound different in tone and vocabulary
But it's not just thoughts popping in, they have fill conversations with them selves why I'm doing other things! Every one isdifferent though. . .

Do you have a t? will you all them?


Hope this message reaches you in a good place

Big river

Hi there!

I have a question, and I'm sorry if I sound to ignorant, I'm rather new here, but what is DPD? I googled it together with dissociation and changed it into BPD.

Thanks in advance

L0rena wrote:Hi there!

I have a question, and I'm sorry if I sound to ignorant, I'm rather new here, but what is DPD? I googled it together with dissociation and changed it into BPD.

Thanks in advance

Hello, DPD is Depersonalization Disorder. It's a lower form of pathological dissociation.

riverside wrote:Hey and greetings, I'd be one of those new faces

Some of what you describe for sure is dpd -the mirror thing is a classic.
The thought interjection sounds like it could be a did thing BUT in DPD yourself is
The thing that dose not seem real in the world and sooo even your own voice in your head or out loud can seem like it's not your own. I know it because I have it alllllll the time-I often look to see who said it or respond! However also having alters complicates the matters.

I can tell the difference because the voices sound different in tone and vocabulary
But it's not just thoughts popping in, they have fill conversations with them selves why I'm doing other things! Every one isdifferent though. . .

Do you have a t? will you all them?


Hope this message reaches you in a good place

Big river

Hello, nice to meet you I'll get a little more detailed. The IT's are...well different at different times. Sometimes they will come out of absolutely nowhere and seem to have their own "Voice" (tone aka sounds like a child etc.) although I may be adding that after the fact because I'm looking for it (if that makes any sense) and can offer a opinion dissenting to my own even when I'm not even thinking about giving an opinion. SO since that probably made very little sense, I'm doing something focused on that thing and out of nowhere a dissenting opinion kind of pops up and thinking about it (or it may have been there from the start, this happened too long ago for perfect recollection) it seems to have sounded like a child. That's the clearest it gets, and that isn't that often, most of the time it's like the back of my head is commenting on what the front of my head is doing/thinking about. I know I'm not full DID (no time loss, no loss of control) I am currently observing due to the possibility of more minor identity alteration/ ego states. The thing is I don't know if it could just be more mood or if it is causing more significant alteration than that would. Also "we" seems to get substituted for "I" rather often although whether that is significant or just a quirk I have is unknown to me.

I'm doing better today than I was last night, so there's always that.

Oh and LLT congrats on supermod, last time I was here you had just made mod, Happy for you.

Maybe this is of some use to you, and maybe other people who are trying to find out where on the dissociative continuum they reside. I thought it was explained pretty well with the pictures and all.

http://sarahkreece.blogspot.com.au/2012 ... icity.html

If not, I'm sorry. Just thought about it when reading your post.

TheCollective wrote:Maybe this is of some use to you, and maybe other people who are trying to find out where on the dissociative continuum they reside. I thought it was explained pretty well with the pictures and all.

http://sarahkreece.blogspot.com.au/2012 ... icity.html

If not, I'm sorry. Just thought about it when reading your post.

That's pretty good! Thank you. A cursory read doesn't help that much, but an in depth view might help later. Strongest answer I found for me was "Maybe". I can talk with my T about the possibility, but I really try to avoid bringing anything to him that I haven't first observed on multiple occasions and confirmed to be symptomatic. When I brought up everything I have been feeling and my concerns about dissociation I was terrified. We went through the DSM criteria for DPD (but none of the higher disorders) and I ended up being yes on every or nearly every point. The other problem is whenever I try to move forward I tend to get hit with self deprecation, depression, guilt, and denial of experiences. which makes things a pain. I'm just rambling here, but it helps with everything so jumbled in my head.

I tired of sleepwalking through life.

I think it just takes lots of time to figure all this out, as complicated as all of it is. Did for us at least, we had the same? problem of having to thoroughly confirm before talking about things. The fear was unbearable before we were ready to talk about it, even though it meant losing the therapist who had all the skills, after trying to talk to her for 2 entire years but failing. Funny now we are ready to talk about it, but we're stuck with a t who doesn't know the first thing about it all lol. The funny thing is that they should be there to help you figure it out, instead of doing all the hard work on your own before presenting it to them. But I know it probably wont make much difference saying that..
Guess it's just what we're used to, figuring out everything on our own.

Don't be so hard on your self, that won't work at all.

Yeah, I really does take time. Took me a year just to go and see someone. I wasn't able to really talk much about it until I just wrote it down and gave him the info in a note. You're right, I really should try to involve him in my thoughts suspicions and worries more, but you know that can be...hard... Funny thing, I keep getting told to not be hard on myself, but I haven't found a way not to yet .

Thank you for the help, I'll be around, and if I have anymore questions they'll probably end up in a new thread. Right now...... it's still a confusing time for me.

Hi & Welcome here

Oh and LLT congrats on supermod, last time I was here you had just made mod, Happy for you.

Thank you, how lovely of you to notice