*Trigger worried what an alter will do

We're struggling and we're not sure how much to declare to our T and social worker because we're scared of what they will do.

Katy who's 14 keeps putting thoughts in our mind about taking an OD. I've told both my T and social worker but told them that the others can be strong enough to stop her if they choose to. (Rachel who has now left made us take one a couple of months ago but this doesn't feel the same - not as definate) The reason we are scared is that the internal talk has gone from talking about IF she does, to WHEN she does - which indicates that they don't feel they are able to/won't stop her. I feel we are bracing for it to come and more focussing on how we will sort things out after it happens, rather than working out ways to stop it happening.

The other night Katy went to get the medication out of our drawer, as she went to do it someone else grabbed the piriton and took that instead to make us tired and sleep Some parts are wanting to give a warning but others don't want to be stopped so we are being torn. Internally they are all saying, if it's going to happen let it happen

Does anyone have any ideas what to do, and how much I can tell people before they kick into action- e.g get someone round to my house everyday to check on me (and IMO go way over the top for something that just COULD happen and if we say something could happen and it doesn't then we are lying and wasting ppls time)

hi there,

thoughts of suicide are totally crap, absolutly poo thing to go through.

We have had meny episodes of this but thank fully have not actually done it trying for real.

Depression is sooo isolating and i have always felt suicide is the end product of depression.

Isolation right now is going to be all of you's worse enermy, maybe some one checking in each day wouldn't be such a bad thing? If it dosen't happen people who are looking after you will be glad they have helped and done there job.

The fact your system is acting casual about it happening is a worrying sign.

Could you have a family chat with them and ask for there support, as much as they can muster?

I bet you are proud that within you was the power to stop that bottle of pills being an overdose. you should be.

Stay strong

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