Liar? Possible Trigger Warning

I feel like the biggest liar ever. It felt so real. Why are they all gone? My alters are gone. I know DID doesn't just go away so quickly. I used to always doubt it. Thought I never really had it at all. But it was them telling me I did. My alters were telling me themselves that they were real. Am I just crazy?
Why can't I remember some things that I've apparently done. I used to hear them and feel them all the time. Hell, I even have a diagnosis. Did I lie to myself, and in turn everybody?
How were they able to talk to me and my friends if they were never even real? **TW I think** I hate myself for this**end TW**

sometimes the peeps are just quiet for a bit, try not to panic, they'll show up when they're needed. ours go quiet when there's no stimulus, like being stuck at home for days on end and that always makes us get depressed and go into denial, which triggers the system back and then we just feel silly :3

Keep your head up muffin, it'll be ok.
~Kitty

Familyof3 wrote:sometimes the peeps are just quiet for a bit, try not to panic, they'll show up when they're needed. ours go quiet when there's no stimulus, like being stuck at home for days on end and that always makes us get depressed and go into denial, which triggers the system back and then we just feel silly :3

Keep your head up muffin, it'll be ok.
~Kitty

Are you sure they'll be back? Is there maybe anything I can do to help? I really miss them. And if they never come back, does that mean I made it all up?

Which brings up another question. Is it possible that I made the whole thing up without even knowing?
If so, wouldn't that be a completely different problem all together?

There's no way you can make it all up without knowing. Chill your stuff and be patient. -Night

-- Sun Jan 12, 2014 2:59 am --

When in denial it can sometimes be a comfort to read over old journal entries or reminisce back on good times that you and your system shared. There will be quiet moments and active ones. Try not to stress yourself out about it, I know it can be difficult and trying when they hide and are silent.