containment therapy with new psych, any advice?

Hi UNA, i am slowly coming to terms with this idea...and i am willing to give it a try.
i am a little scared that at the end of each dosis, there are these backlashes of great fear,
i could avoid it, taking the pill a bit earlier, but again, afraid of raising the dosis too fast too soon.

what do you mean coming here to spend new year? you mean the forum? i do not mind being alone, i like it, it is kind of peaceful inside me, when i am not surrounded by expectations.

i love seeing people and not having to interact! so tv is great company. does not sound good, but now and until now has been my way. a big hug and thanks!!

Hi loise

I'm pleased to see your being strong and not letting anxiety get the best of the situation.
Bloody exhausting isn't it?

I feel I can understand your worries about becoming addicted a bit more now you have said about your families history. I can relate with similar back stories but luckily have some one to remind me who I an and who I am not.

Here's a good thing I know for one hundred million percent. You are not your dad our your brother or any one else for that matter.There is and only will ever be one of you. Even if you do feel you are many at times! Yes we are influenced by our genetics and environments but we, the individual have the last say.
You are doing something already- you are saying I don't want to be addicted. Like una said your t is there to monitor you.let her do that by telling her your fear of addiction and tell her you want to be monitored at regular intervals. You could set a contract with her?

I'm glad you are getting to say out loud all you want to, that's why I come here. I can say stupid stuff and if a stranger dissent scorn me, chances are my partner and t won't.
Please continue to post because in my short time here i have learnt much and been supported even more.

What una said about coming here for new years - i often come here when i'm feeling the wrose and answer some ones post..... takes away some of those butterflys in the stomach.

i hope this post finds you in a good place. Keep us up to date with how things are going- i for one am sending you well wishes.

If you ever need an ear just pm me.

respects
river

thanks riverside,
yesterday was the third challenge, my sons 20th birthday, i took my pill, it all went well.
Days are long, today will be the most feared one.
where i live today is the day where all kind of destruction takes places, people use fireworks to throw at people, to bomb bus stations etc. it is really scary besides the non ending noise. my three children will be out until 5 to 7 in the morning of tomorrow. it will be a very very very long day and i am tired already.
i will divide my day in five periods, morning, shopping last ingredients and my time alone, afternoon preparing some, most will be ready-made;3. after five we eat together and make a revision of our last year, positive, negative, lessons learned, new horizons..(my children know little of my mental issues, apart form being nervous and forgetful and having a psych that helps me organize my agenda and events),4. and then watch tv until girls go to disco after midnight, and 5. then wait until they return, sleeping hopefully, but i doubt it.

i read you take a lot of pills for pain. i live with pain too, specially at night....but mine is related to my column....but i does not stop me, yet. have a good jaar wisseling...change of year?

it all went well, actually good. i did take a bit more of oxazepam, but it was nice to be almost at peace i could say. the girls did not go out. watch tv with them until three a.m.

all is well, sorry for the panic alert!! and thanks for the support!!

SOOO glad you more than survived and is so nice that your girls decided to stay in with there mum! That is such a nice thing.
was horrible to read the bad things that happen at new years were you live-
If a fire work go's off here people window twitch to see what all the noise is about! Lol

Maybe it all going so well is a sign for the future? You must be very proud to have trusted your self with the tablets.
Feeling peace for the first time can be a scary and such a stranger-but peace is so beautiful.I wish you lots of it.

Best wishes

thanks riverside,
i have had a bad allergic reaction to the medicine, or the medicine with something else? in any case, i have stopped. yesterday i was able to sleep without it.
i felt very relaxed with it,
but the secondary effects are too strong in me, it happens often. my tongue becomes zwollen, my throat closes a bit, and there is pain, besides the skin rash, this time they would become bladders (?), so i had to go to the doc to get a gel or something.

i have to take control of things without meds, this is not the first time that i get a bad reaction to them. i will wait and talk to my psych of the tenth.

loise wrote:besides the skin rash, this time they would become bladders (?)

By bladders I think you mean blisters. Blasen am Haut sind "blisters".

This reaction may be mostly psychosomatic, ie not chemical. The reaction is nonetheless real, and in your situation I would avoid the pills. There are other ways to lower anxiety. I could recommend some self-help books in English; alas, it doesn't appear that any of them are available in a German translation. Your care team may be able to recommend some.

Una+ wrote:

loise wrote:besides the skin rash, this time they would become bladders (?)

By bladders I think you mean blisters. Blasen am Haut sind "blisters".

This reaction may be mostly psychosomatic, ie not chemical. The reaction is nonetheless real, and in your situation I would avoid the pills. There are other ways to lower anxiety. I could recommend some self-help books in English; alas, it doesn't appear that any of them are available in a German translation. Your care team may be able to recommend some.

Hi Una, thanks for the translation, sometimes i can not remember if a word belongs to one or the other language. it is dutch. i stopped on friday and the allergie continued downwards and has stopped growing but they some look like cigarrette burns. i could live a little longer with the skin reaction, what really scares me is that my throat closes down and my tongue grows, i can see it because my teeth are drawn on the sides of my tongue...
since the first reaction to the medicine was so good, i thought it would be ideal to take it when i go to my second containment therapy in februari,...it would give me some resiliance..i think... but after this later reactions i wonder.

we tried with my psych, one day with quietapin and oxazepam together and i get theses amazing waves in my spine, like involuntary muscle movement....my body is a mess, but yesterday despite the bad pain (i have chronisch pain in my lower back, maybe an ernia), i went to church, and the moving, the going, the being there helped me a lot...so i see, that despite the pain i must remain in action, movement, activities, etc;. i am ok, today i have a funeral, i hope that my body will learn not to sabotage me. english would be fine for the books.let me know ok?

8 Keys to Safe Trauma Recovery: Take-Charge Strategies to Empower Your Healing by Babette Rothschild

You might go on Amazon and look through the list of "other books bought by people who bought this book".

Una+ wrote:8 Keys to Safe Trauma Recovery: Take-Charge Strategies to Empower Your Healing by Babette Rothschild

You might go on Amazon and look through the list of "other books bought by people who bought this book".

thanks Una, I will look into it!