"we" vs "i" vs "you" in DID

This is probably just an extraneous point, but it seems like it may be significant and I'm curious about what everyone here has to say.

What do your inner thoughts/communications sound like? I hate myself for asking about this, but I am really curious about what everyone here has to say.

I have noticed that most of my inner thoughts/communications occur in the "you" or "we" case. I almost never have a thought/idea that feels like "I" came up with it, it usually feels like it is guided by someone else.

I have trouble in understanding this phenomenon. Perhaps I am a "point-man" of sorts of a part that is the actual "original host"? Is it possible that "I" am not the original "part"? I almost wouldn't be surprised if that were true, based on how much DP I feel on a regular basis.

Lots of questions here, I apologize.

Sorry - trying to work out all the questions so that I can try and answer at least some.

Our inner communication varies so I shall simply give some examples; 'she said' 'she did' 'can I have' (in a childs voice) crying from a child (like 'I don't want to go that way) 'we need to get x'. A lot of the time it feels like it is not 'me' singularly as the main part. It seems to be a lot of our other parts talking generally, to 'me', to each other, or someone trying to make a statement about what we (as in this body) needs to get done/where it needs to go. Hope that makes some sense.

We do have time that we say 'I' and feel it/mean it. We seem to have glimpes in time, in conversation with external people and I think internally that one person feels like 'I' or 'me' - but as you can see, most days we struggle and have to put it in brackets because they are words we feel we should use or have to use in the external world in order to fit in and appear 'normal'.

I think it's possible that you are not the original part, but it is also possible that it is because simply it isn't 'your' idea or something 'you' did or need to do - thats how it feels to us, that some decisions and actions have to be done as a team, with co-operation because it's not possible for one single person to do them....therefore there is no 'I' in team

When I really pay attention to my inside conversations I usually hear "we"...
"Where are we?' What are we doing today?" "We are hungry."

Sometimes it can be frustrating because its more than one voice so I don't know who exactly is asking the question. So I just answer anyway...

I can't really recall hearing "I" very often.

What do your inner thoughts/communications sound like? I hate myself for asking about this, but I am really curious about what everyone here has to say.

I have noticed that most of my inner thoughts/communications occur in the "you" or "we" case. I almost never have a thought/idea that feels like "I" came up with it, it usually feels like it is guided by someone else.

I hear a lot of parts saying 'I', 'we', 'she' and 'they'. I understand the feeling that perhaps you don't come up with ideas or thoughts, but I think you certainly do, it's just different to what you hear. I think everything you hear in sentences is what is spoken by parts in the inner 'self' talk talking area. I can only hear what parts say in this area and I cannot hear what they think – with the exception of one part occasionally or when I've experienced 'sharing' the same thought as another part.

I think that when you think, you think in the cognitive processing area and you do not talk this thinking out to yourself. And because there is so much going on inside it can be confusing. I know that all parts are loud and that I don't usually pay attention to what I am thinking – I just think and do. Perhaps something similar is happening for you.

I've spent a lot of time thinking about this as I have a part who tries to confuse me!

I have trouble in understanding this phenomenon. Perhaps I am a "point-man" of sorts of a part that is the actual "original host"? Is it possible that "I" am not the original "part"? I almost wouldn't be surprised if that were true, based on how much DP I feel on a regular basis.

I truly believe that all parts of a person with DID are the original person. I think that when trauma happened then the person tried to escape it with dissociation but they couldn't escape completely and a part of themselves was more present. This part of the self holds the memory of the incident but is split off from everyday consciousness. This pattern repeats. So I think all parts are the original person, it's just consciousness splits and each part holds different memories and is therefore different. The host or the ANP is what I think is left of the the person that dissociated all those times. The parts were born of what was left behind of the persons consciousness.

Again, I have thought a lot about this as a part has a lot of fears over not being the original part and possibly made up, but then also that I am not the original part and also made up. But I believe that I am the ANP/host (I don't like these terms!), that I am what is left of the I that dissociated away from things. Futhermore, I cannot remember any abuse before the age of 10 but I do have a general memory of where I lived and what it looked like.

Every person is unique and every person with DID has broken like a mirror into parts, and then functions in their own way. But I wouldn't worry too much, as I really do think you, and the rest of you, are all the original person.

And with DP, I used to get that a lot. When it happens now, I understand that a part is 'merging' with me or they are sharing their feelings, and things feel unreal for them as they are less grounded and in the present moment generally, and they may have only just become more present (having been 'sleeping'). I also feel other feelings that parts are holding.

I use the word 'I' when talking about myself, as do the others. I write 'we' often because I'm talking about us instead of just myself. 'You' is only when we're talking to each other. Often we have to stop ourselves from saying 'we' out loud to other people. So far it's only happened in T thankfully!