I don't know what this is...

I think I'm losing it.

I sent an email to my best friend, it's written as if a 5 year old wrote it. I Have NO Memory of Writing It! It's nothing that I'd say. I don't know. I found out that "I" sent this when I was trying to find a different email that I sent. I don't know it kind of creeped me out alittle, because I have no idea what the h*ll is wrong with me.

I keep "waking up" in places where I have to idea how I got there or what I was doing. Most of the time this happens at night. And normally I end up in some "not so good" places.

I space out all the time and I'll have conversations with people that I don't remember having. I'll say things that I wouldn't say and I'll do things that I wouldn't do. And a bunch of other things like this.

I've always had problems with this kind of stuff. But it's been getting worse and it's creeping me the f*ck out! I mean the email that "I" sent. What The H*ll!

I'm so sorry you're going through this right now.

I hope this doesn't come across as a completely generic suggestion...but is there any way you can go and see a therapist?
I think having a professional to talk and vent to can do so much in helping relieve some of the stress and anxiety that goes along with all of this. If you can find a decent therapist they'll be a great ally to you. They wont judge you, they wont call you crazy or stupid, and they'll believe you. You wont have to try and explain to them experience you go through as if you're talking to a brick wall...they'll actually probably surprise you with their understanding and insight.

I'm at least very glad you've found this website. Venting and getting this out is so good for you! I think you're very brave for coming here and opening up!
It can feel just so darn good knowing we're not alone, and that someone is out there who does care and who is listening!

I really am sorry you're going through so much right now :*(

Okay if I give you a hug?

(((((((HUGS)))))))

I do have a therapist.
I have a couple good friends that listen and help out too. I'm so lucky to have them but they can only help so much.
And my counselor's not 100% sure what this is. He's going to get a consult.
But I don't know what to do...