Can only connect with fantasy

Hey guys, I just thought it would be cool to talk about this. When something in life happens that is bad, I dont thinking I feel anything but hollow. Dad dies and I was like, "okay". I felt guilty, but it didnt change how I felt. Mom goes to jail, okay. I almost die, okay. I scream out in frustration sometimes how I feel like a monster. I can feel a little, but only as much as the host alter can, I guess. Even when I do feel something, this other alter keeps me in check. I guess he cohosts and just cuts down any feeling with sharp sarcastic belittling or doubt, like, "You dont feel anything. You are just faking the feelings and thoughts like always. Get a f-ing life you monster." But...when I read a book or watch I sad ending, I zone into the world and cant see anything else, well that goes for everything i guess, but I mean I feel as if I am the character. When it gets to the sad part, I just want to break down crying, tears roll down my cheek and even with mr.sarcastic i cant control it. I heard this is a common symptom of DID and wondered if this ever happens to you guys.

It... it always happened to me. In fact I'm scared of getting to involved in a film or some series, because I feel like I'm a character. I think this is something common in the Autist Spectrum too.
I'm reading a book of Freud (Introduction to Psychoanalysis), and I felt really identified when he talked about daydreaming. It's exactly what you describe, and me too, and it seems that it happens to everybody from the pre-puberty age to the adult life but it can prolong forever.
There are a few alters that live in their own fantasy world, too, inspired by Mad Men. Don (took his name from Don Draper), Margaret (who initially was some kind of Joan Holloway but then discovered that Peggy is nickname for Margaret and became some kind of Peggy Olson) and Allie (started to act like Joan Holloway).
I remember one day being co-conscious. Margaret (who has a french accent) was taking care of the littles, but she was having a romance with Don and she called Don to his office. It's weird, but I felt their happiness.
I never got to the point to live in a fantasy with the alters, though.
Tom

Oh yes! Numb to my real-life experiences, and crying my eyes out at Harry Potter You are not alone in this

my girlfriend gets upset about this sort of thing, she has said in arguments that i only show emotion and feeling about 'things'. when i talk about my art or watch movies i feel so much passion for it but often in relation to 'real' stuff i don't display much feeling. although i have recently had some severe emotional outbursts; i haven't had anything like that for a while and they've been getting worse recently; they don't feel like me but she has accused me of being a bully. she says screaming uncontrollably and things like that is a form of domestic abuse, which makes me feel awful because i don't feel in control.

Yeah, my one friend called me a monster after I told him about my dad dying and other things. He was kidding, but it still struck me as, maybe he is right. Now, of course, I see that there are tons of other people out there who I can connect too, thanks guys. I also am spaced out most of my day. I sometimes have to struggle to stay focused. I was in the grocery store today and I couldnt understand what my aunt was saying. I really had to push myself to hear and respond to her. I feel stuck in a wave of zoning. most of the time I am thinking, but sometimes it is just gazing out into the distance. Like when I used the bathroom an hour ago, I slowly closed the door and just watched as I closed it on my finger. Snapped me out of it, but it really sucks. The Golden Compass made me cry. I know what you mean Tom and Owl, I dont want to get into anything because I know I will be the character. I cant watch a sad movie with friends, I have to space out or do something else or I might cry in front of them. Oh, just wanted to say that a good amount of us alters got names today. I just asked them what they wanted and we felt it out