Count down to new Dr & T

5 more days till D day.
New medical Dr. and an attempt at a new T.
They also said to expect a possible MRI .. to prepare me.
The BF has taken the day off to come with, to insure that no one keeps us from leaving.
We have already had 2 violent outbursts this week. We also havent slept in 5 days without several sleep aids.. (store bought teas and natural herbal pills bought by the bf)
We will have the boy with us up until the day of the appoint, in order to stay focused and calm.
Our outbursts came, on the day we didnt have him this week.
Friends have been getting together to keep us busy.. however they cant stop what happens when our eyes close.
try to focus, meditate, seek spiritual guidance.. but when I do, i feel as though I am deceiving and deserve this chaos

Enduring chaos and emerging from it can make you sharper, I believe. All the best!

That's great!
I hope they will help you a lot
Cheers, Lana

It s hard having rough nites, and havin outbursts. I know what you mean by:you can t prevent what happens when you close your eyes.

As for deserving: this is not somethin you deserve, it is however somethin you have to go through for now.

I genuinely hope the new T and dr will be of some help and support for you.

I m glad your bf is supportin you through this.

Gentle hugs if wanted

Nina11