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Realisation/catching up and pain!

Postby Brainfizz » Fri Jul 05, 2013 12:10 am

Hi I'm new here but have been reading posts for a while, I'm fairly new to the knowledge of did and still argue with myself whether I have it or not although people have seen me switched and I think I've always known deep down, at the end of the day I read about DID after my husband had seen me changed as a child :?

I'm just wondering if anyone else has experienced a sort of strange catch up in time, like I look around me and wonder how I got here, I feel so much pain everyday but worst Is I suddenly feel the loneliness everyday, my family are still just as bad as before but now I suddenly feel what I didn't before.

I feel so desperate with the pain of it, I can't even explain it properly
Our family threapist said this is constructive not destructive but it doesn't feel constructive at all :-(
I get a lot of memories and what I think are body memories I haven't even started proper psychotherapy yet I just had consultation sessions and am on the waiting list but it really opened things up I think, my boxes

Has anyone else experienced this, its like I feel so trapped and unsafe and I want to run away I think its major projection going on but what can I do?

Thanks for helping guys
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Re: Realisation/catching up and pain!

Postby Rubyscarlet » Sun Jul 07, 2013 8:58 am

Hi, welcome :) Yes, I understand how you are feeling. It is very painful and often seems so much at once. I haven't started therapy yet either, but things have been 'opened up' and I'm discovering things very quickly, which can be very scary.
For me, the priority is safety. I know what it is like feeling trapped and unsafe, and it's important to have a safe space to go through the pain and feelings. Also to not allow yourself to go back into denial as I believe that will only delay the process and I think that makes it worse.
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