Weird Dynamic... ***Trigger-sexual topic***

Ok, so I feel guilty about this, but I used to fantasize sex with destiny before i realized she may have been more than a fantasy piece. I had meditated and met her in a 'brothel' where she kept hitting on me and flirting, and making advances but i felt like she had so much more there while i was on the inside. I turned her down on sex and started talking. she seemed like a girl who wanted to please me, but I worried that wasnt truly her. I feel asleep during all this and the meditation fell apart. So, I decided that I'd come back. I started to meditated again after a couple days and came to this same 'brothel' and the girls there were being 'sold'... I didn't like this and learned very fast how fast that problem could be corrected. The 'buyers' evaporated, the 'brothel' unwound and braided back into solid ground. The girls were clothed in normal clothing, and free to live out a normal life. I found Destiny as the others left, and we played a few games as we talked. I broke down about the guilt I may have hurt her, but she said she was ok, that I never hurt her and that she forgave me... I couldn't believe she was ok with this sort of thing. She still has an interest in sex. She still seems to want to please me, but as I stopped the fantasies with her (He still does sometimes. ^_^) I'm sorry, she seems to have changed her approach to non-sexual things. She took control of the woods and creates new and original plants... I really enjoy them. (I do too! ^.^ I like the glowing ones, they're pretty.) by the way, I have her typing in () as she doesn't take control of the body, nor do I know if she's really a part of me. So anyway, that about sums up our meeting, and I still have concerns about our relationship, but I, or maybe we, wanted to share it. Please don't find me sick or bad...

Also, I'm sorry for apologizing so much.

No worries. You are not the first person to share a story like this here on the DID Forum.

(He's feeling embarrassed. I don't want him to, but He says he can't help it. OnO)
Well you're pretty young, and it felt like a bad thing when I learned you were more than a thought.
(I guess.... But SO? ^.^ I never complained.)
And I never asked, so it felt wrong...
It feels really weird to type like this as I'm used to removing the extra, but now I'm trying to keep it.
(We can work on it. ^.^)