neck deep in denial TRIGGER

I just want a family......

I completely understand. I'm sorry for the pain you have experienced (are experiencing), but you will have to accept it in order to move forward. It may not seem like it, but the more you push away things, the deeper it hurts. At least, that is what I've noticed. One thing that has kept me (and Rhi) going all these years, is that "nothing lasts forever." That may seem like a sordid quote, but when you look at it, it is actually quite positive. Although it may feel as if the pain won't end and no one is helping you, that pain will not last forever.

It may not be my place to suggest this, but have you asked Jesus to save you? Religion is usually such a sensitive topic, so I will stop there, but if you have further questions about Him, be free to pm me (or Rhi).

Do you know the story of the lotus flower? A lotus often blossoms from the dirty mud. It is that mud that makes that flower so beautiful. Sometimes we can feel consumed by the harsh conditions we may be in, but just like the lotus flower- WHEN we make it through, we become truly beautiful and amazing.
-Jae

If I may, *hugs* I really hope you feel better. I know how difficult it can be, and I know the feeling of wanting a family. I believe you will get through this, and I believe you will be much better when you do. Stay strong, it'll get better.

Thank you

~jackilyn