Tulpa?

Just a bit update about my "alters". I know this is off-topic but I'm just gonna say it. We don't know how it happened but Nurul seems like hard to speak. She said something like "Me. Water. Please." I hope she'll be fine.

Update
I introduced all of my alters, i told him that yesterday i felt i was a girl for almost a day, i told him that i did start to feel like *trigger warning - religion* not believing in god *end trigger* and he gave me more meds. I dont like getting more meds. I think the hospital doesnt know about DID. I feel like i want to like give up with these meds and psychiatrist stuff.
David: I want to tell Adam's mom about us and stuff but Nurul blocked me. I want to give a message to her in Facebook but she came in. So I'll tell her next time.

I'm sorry to hear that. Are there mental health organizations near you that could give you a referral to a psychiatrist (and, ideally, a therapist) who does know about DID?

Please don't give up. I think telling Adam's mom what's going on is a good idea. I hope that works and goes well for all of you. (If she doesn't know much about DID, it might help to give her some information about it when you talk to her. It can seem unbelievable and scary to people who don't really know anything about it. And if she doesn't know about the rest of you, it might be better for Adam to talk to her about it, if that's possible, since she knows him and is hopefully comfortable with him.)

Good luck, and let us know how it goes?

Update:
I don't have DID. It was just my imagination. The psychiatrist gave me more medicine. More medicine means more side effects. I feel like I should take the old medicine (Risperidone 2mg) because I just can't take all the medicine the psychiatrist gave me. It's too much. I felt like nothing. I even asked myself "Why I feel nothing?" So... that's it. I still feel like nothing though. Hopefully I won't feel like that during school.

AdamMZ wrote:I don't have DID. It was just my imagination.

Do you still feel this way? (Sorry, been away a few days.) Is that what your psychiatrist told you or what you really believe? Actually, either way, I still strongly think you should get a second opinion from a psychiatrist who is knowledgeable about DID. Is there a psych hospital nearby who can give you referrals?

AdamMZ wrote:The psychiatrist gave me more medicine. More medicine means more side effects. I feel like I should take the old medicine (Risperidone 2mg) because I just can't take all the medicine the psychiatrist gave me. It's too much. I felt like nothing. I even asked myself "Why I feel nothing?" So... that's it. I still feel like nothing though. Hopefully I won't feel like that during school.

I'm sorry. Were you/anyone in your system able to talk to Adam's mom about all of this?

Hang in there. I know it's really hard, but you can do it.

AlteredArt wrote:Do you still feel this way? (Sorry, been away a few days.) Is that what your psychiatrist told you or what you really believe? Actually, either way, I still strongly think you should get a second opinion from a psychiatrist who is knowledgeable about DID. Is there a psych hospital nearby who can give you referrals?

Yeah, I'm pretty sure it was just my imagination. I don't talk to them anymore.

AlteredArt wrote:I'm sorry. Were you/anyone in your system able to talk to Adam's mom about all of this?

I end up stop taking the medicine. It was too much for me. I'm gonna tell my psychiatrist to stop giving me more medicines. I just don't want to end up taking drugs.

I'm not sure what you read, but tulpas are supposedly thought forms made of actual energy... the idea comes from Tibetan monks who concentrated intensely on an image and discovered it, who do not have DID. A tulpa can be limited in personality (as an animal? baby?) or it can have a full personality. It's nothing like switching personalities... it would be more like an imaginary friend, but one you can see and hear. If compared to any disorder it would be a type of schizophrenia, not DID. Like Jani, who had particular hallucinations as regulars.

Some people see tulpas as a psychological experiment. They think their mind is projected the image and voice of the person/whatever, the whole experience.

Some people see tulpas as actually there, either sentient beings or just energy forms, like a programmed psi ball... but more like a programmed AI?

The only time having a tulpa would be similar to having DID would be when people let their tulpa possess them - act through their body.

And yes, you consciously create tulpas.

I found this thread and want to shed some light here, a tulpa and an alter differ in that if you don't give attention to a tulpa it dissipates, which is essentially them dying, an alter stays. I have a tulpa, and she can't talk yet, but I'd be happy to answer some questions about tulpas.

Well Adam, denial is a symptom of DID. If the medication is effecting you that badly, talk to your psychiatrist about a method to deal with the voices and visual hallucinations in a non medicating way. If they don't know alternative methods of treatment, I'd dump your psych and find a new one. I have auditory and night time visual hallucinations myself but I'm aware that the voices and hallucinations aren't real so I don't think it's this tulpa thing. Also, I don't think I would have made my imagination a reality from how severe and terrifying they are. When you think it's tulpa, Adam do you get any reaction from your alters? Feelings or thoughts on the subject?