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Hello.
My name is Erik. I believe I have D.I.D
I am unsure because, people with D.I.D, switch in between alters. I, however, do not.
Yes. there is always someone in the driving seat. but to put it simply. It's like My body is a starship. and on this starship, there is the captain, the commender, and etc. Although, not all control the ship at once. They all have a final output in certain situations. Understand I have never been to a doctor. So everything I tell you from this point on is a self diagnose of my problems. I have been going through Major Depressive Disorder for about 2 years now. No, I have no strong suicidal thought's. They are there but, I will not be beating so easily. I have been depressed for years, but I would say two years ago is when it got real bad. Now, all my life. I have talked to myself. I have carried on, highly intellectual conversations with what are believed to be my alters. The reason I am writing this is because, I DO NOT switch between them. instead I become them. So Erik(which is me) might be here this second, but 5 seconds later. I could become Asmodeos, or aquarius.(two of my alters). I don't make a choice to become anybody. it just happens. All of my alters are fully aware of each other. in fact we communicate in my mind. you can call them board meetings. I don't think I'm crazy, nor should I be hospitalized. We have been doing this for years. I was afraid to talk about them because of society not understanding exactly what is going on with me. I was wondering if what I have could be called D.I.D or is it a different disorder all together. Please help!!