Working on Acceptance

by **Tunes14** » Tue Apr 09, 2013 9:21 pm

well, janice, no one else is exactly perfect in their acceptance either. its not as though were doing so terribly. so if your going to sit around and mope about how you wish our system was 'stable' enough to participate in something like this, let me shock you and be the first.

not that we know everyone but as of the situation currently:

Jess, i accept you. i accept that you exist (i doubt it could be denied). i accept that you are real (since you share the identity of the body, how could you not be?). i accept that you are a part of me and i accept that i am a part of you, at least to the degree that we are connected on a much deeper level than a ghost and her host body. i accept that there is something more to us than something that simple; that there is some kind of inherent connection between your being and my own. i do not accept you as you are, because you are weak and scared of everything and refuse to improve, but instead think that your little discomforts with life give you reason to just give up all the time. you need better than that. you deserve better than that. and i will not be satisfied until you are better than that. but on the basis of your personality and opinions and other such details that make up who you are, these things can drive me insane and make me want to tie you to a chair and leave you there for a day or so. but i accept them. you are more accepted by me than you think, i assure you.

Myself - do i really have to go through this one? honestly, is there any doubt that i am satisfied with myself? haha

Teen, i accept you. i accept that you exist, since the kids are well taken care of and jess randomly gets this odd knack for cleaning, which i do believe could only come from you. i certainly accept you as you are.

LEll, i accept you. i accept that you exist (as demonstrated by the apple juice and other supplies i provided, even before i would admit that you were real). i accept that you are real (how can it be denied, with all the pooh and colored pictures - even if i almost never see you for myself). i accept you as you are - one 'smart cookie'.

Mute, i accept you. i accept that you exist. i cant say i know anything at all about you, and probably wont for a while, so i cant go any farther than this, but perhaps someday ill know more.

Fae, i dont accept anything about you yet, as im relying on everything others say and have seen no evidence of your existence for myself. also you seem to embody everything that jess lost from high school, so im honestly not sure you even exist. i think jess just reminisces too much, honestly.

white color in my signature, i also have no evidence of your existence. so far, you seem to me to be nothing more than a feeling of comfort, so i cant say honestly that i accept that you exist.

yellow color in my signature, seeing as janice does indeed have a flashlite now, i suppose on some level you must exist. other than that, i cant say that you have much going for you.

Janice, i accept you. i accept that you exist, and that you are real. you may not accept that, but i do. you are different from jess, even if you dont see it. even if no one else sees it, hosting with you during this time has shown me that there are definite differences. and i have appreciated and even enjoyed our time together. your welcome to cohost with me any day (within reason - sneaking in during an identity crisis is not the most appropriate time). i accept that you are definitely a part of jess (no one could deny), which in turn, would make you something of a part of me as well. and finally, you are not disgusting whether you think you are or not. i accept you as you are.

James, yeah, we got off to a bad start, but you threw yourself into the mix during an identity crisis, and then ignored all my requests for stability. however, i do accept you. i accept that you exist, and that you are real. and i accept you as you are... and SOME of your pranks can be kinda funny, creative anyway.

Introject, i accept that you exist, and that you are real. if you can hurt people, you must be ######6 real on some level. but i do not accept anything about you. i cant say i reject you to the level that the others do - actually, i see you as extremely pathetic. i almost feel sorry for you. you are always filthy and slimy and just down right repulsive. but then, you constantly roll around in mud and manure, so i cant really say i feel sorry for you when you do it to yourself.

Katie, i accept that you exist. you have an impact, so you must exist. whether or not you are real is still something i question - you may just be a figment created by others because they dont want to admit that they have no real self control or pride. or you may really be some deranged child that likes to have sex while causing other people emotional turmoil. i dont know. but either way, i dont really accept you. though if you are real, you need one hell of a lesson in manners, and id like nothing more than to tie you to a chair and give you lessons until you are ######6 flawless. but somehow, i feel thats inappropriate.

red text in the signature, dont get into my ######6 make-up. and if that reference you made to the animals was indeed some kind of comment on our personal characters, i only find attacks on my pride to be vaguely humorous. the real comedy doesnt start until you try to back it up. besides, until you actually make an appearance, all i can say is that if katie is real, then you likely exist too, seeing as you prevent her pain. that is having an effect. but beyond that, you dont even take up a passing thought.

there. my brutal honesty. now janice, if you really find it so amazing and want to participate, you have your entrance.

thank you for sharing!

(though i'd hope that you didn't only do this to point out that janice was "wrong" or anything.
maybe she's not moping so much as she doesn't feel ready to do something like this yet, and that's perfectly ok, just like it's ok to think that maybe the system wasn't ready for this yet, because that's an opinion that she can have). :oops:

no matter what though this is great work, great progress, and i'm glad you shared it here! :oops:

- cassie (age ?)

by **Tunes14** » Sat Apr 20, 2013 2:55 pm

jen only did this to make a point to me. of course, thats not to say any of it was untrue. she probably was not very moved or affected by this at all. she wouldnt say it if she hadnt already thought about it for so long without expressing it that its without question in her mind. she does more introspection than she likes other people to know she does...

and i thought i knew more about those thoughts than i did, i guess. because some of what she was willing to speak aloud really surprised me. i knew she was considering a lot of what was written up there (i didnt even know all of it, it seems), but i wasnt aware that it was so secure in her mind that shed actually admit it...

and unfortunately, shortly after jen posted that (thou due to reasons completely unrelated to the post), we had a denial attack from jess and we decided that we were taking a break from assumptions of any kind... we arent allowed to express anything that we arent 100% sure of, so as to not leave room for any confusion... yea, ok, whatever. i think its kinda dumb. why cant we just express what we believe and, you know, take other parts' opinions with a grain of salt? why do we have to completely stop? its irritating. but ill be a good sport. so until we get done with this little experiment, ill have to hold off on my own post and focus on that system mapping...

by **tomboy24** » Fri Apr 26, 2013 11:26 pm

i'm sorry to hear that, janice. :oops:

that doesn't make sense to me. we express things all the time that we aren't 100% sure of. even singletons are often not 100% sure of stuff they think or feel or anything like that.

i hope things get better for you all soon. :oops:

- cassie (age ?)

I know I still need to finish what I originally started, but I just wanted to say one quick thing-

Doctor, I haven't met you yet, least not officially, but I just wanted to say that from what I've heard from Shay, you're definitely real. I bet you're aware that some of the others doubt your existence and such, so I wanted you to know there's at least someone besides Shay who doesn't doubt you and not only believes that you exist and are real, but accepts that you exist and are real.

:wink:

~The Hawk

(Haha, "The Hawk". Kinda like "The Doctor". :lol:

Wait a second- possibly something there to take note of? Hmmm... well at least it's posted here. And I've definitely taken a mental note of it just in case there's anything to that similarity).

by **Tunes14** » Mon Apr 29, 2013 6:16 pm

well, most of us are kinda starting to relax on that a bit. since i expressed it here and talked to jess's SO about it, most of the others have admitted that they think it's dumb too. jess is still in the 100% sure phase, but she has agreed to let us relax. so we are talking about the inner world and stuff again, thou we are a lot more casual about it. we are admitting when we dont really remember $#%^, and we can make the distinction between what we believe and what we actually remember. so thats good. jess is rarely out now - and the last 4 times she has come out, shes had some kind of breakdown over something. so shes not usually out. im thinking about a more permanent host change, since she cant seem to handle it anymore and doesnt seem to want to. we still hear from her on the inside - she is coconscious often, but when she actually fronts, she always breaks down. she may need to become an inside part for a while. so we are getting pretty relaxed, and i will admit that having the stricter regulations on who we can acknowledge as existing has helped a lot. and im happy to say that just about everyone is accounted for, and its strongly believed that the one not accounted for probably does exist. and with the confidence boost, everyone feels more free. shared information has gotten strong - i think we broke down a lot of walls, many that we didnt even know were there. its kinda cool.

((the only one unaccounted for is white-text, which based on his nature and purpose (as far as we know) is expected. i mean, we didnt exactly find out about him because of any kind of 'appearance' to begin with - we accidentally found him. so naturally, he hasnt come forward. but we are pretty sure hes there, since all - literally all - of the others are.))

by **Snuffthroostr** » Sun Jun 09, 2013 4:46 am

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