How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Truthfully, growing up, most of the boys we dealt with were horrible. They did a lot more than just push us off our bikes and fighting almost never lead to friendships. Most boys did what they could to terrify me.

It was the women and girls in our lives which were often the best towards us. But that may also have been that *everyone* including our parents thought we were a gay man. It probably didn't help that we genuinely wanted to be friends.

My father is feeling better today. I had to remind him to make sure he takes all of his medicine.

Really doing badly for the past day or so. It seems like there’s no point in trying to feel more and be more present because that just leads to unbearable pain. Someone is feeling like it should be enough that we’re doing all the things we’re supposed to, to LOOK like we’re having a good life. It’s too much to ask of us that we ALSO try to enjoy it.

@Gang: it's okay to need a break from feeling, sometimes. I did that last week-end because I was going through too much at once emotionally. Sometimes the break we need is short. Sometimes it is longer. Resting is a normal need.

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My sciatic nerve is getting on my nerves (badum-tss). It's not bad to the point I am stuck but it is a constant annoying pain requiering regular stretching and the occasional inflammation pill. I had planned to visit the local library this afternoon but I'll stay home instead. It's annoying but well, at least I'm not stuck, at least it's bearable, at least I can still do a bit of housekeeping if I move slowly and keep my back straight (ironic for a queer person). To add to the joke atop of the meme, I pinched my nerve when doing my back musculation exercises in order to NOT have sciatic issues.

Sometimes you just roll "1" too many times in a row on your d20 dice (this is a reference to tabletop roleplaying games using a 20 sided dice as a base system for the randomized results of actions such as knowing if an arrow hits the ennemy, also called the d20 system)

Nat 1's are awful. (I play D&D regularly with my buddies.) On top of everything else, I have spinabifida. I'm not wheelchair bound yet, but it really isn't fun, and is another reason why I have to lose weight. So, I get where you're coming from. I have a lot of nerve pain in my legs. Unfortunately, I don't have the choice to stay home today. I hope you feel better later though.

@TheGangsAllHere-

Sometimes not feeling is alright. I know that there are days where just to function, we can't feel anything.

As for us...

Last night a toxic person came on voice chat while we were gaming. He's the brother of a friend (who is another system too.) Angel came up and bolstered me a lot. I was more aware than I am when Pippa comes up to the front, but they did a lot to just help us get through the whole ordeal. This was appreciated since yesterday was a 'let's not punch the wall' type day. Dealing with people is frustrating.

I agree, dealing with people is sooo frustrating! Congratulations on managing it anyway!

As for me, the sciatic seems to be healed. I managed some jumping-jacks today, also stretched a lot, did not need any pain med. I'll still wait another day before walking all the way to the "half price stuff not sold yet by closing time" backery. I'm out of viennoiseries and brioche since the day before the sciatic started and I miss being able to have some for tea-time. But I'm waiting untill I'm very sure I'm all good. I could have gone earlier this week but it would have been painful and I have decided I'll be reasonable and not make me feel pain just for cake. I can have bread and jam instead, it's good too.

I'm glad the sciatica is better.

Today was frustrating, but also great. My sister bought me a brand new Switch. It's a combined 'birthday, Christmas, and "sorry you've had to cope with all the stupidity lately"' present. Now I can play Monster Hunter Rise with all my friends. There's also games on Switch I want to play that I can't on Xbox. My sister spoils me a lot.

The frustrating part is that my father lost the key for our drill and I had to punch a hole in my bookcase so I could run the cable. This meant I had to go to the store, discover that drills no longer use keys like this one does, but in the end, I got it done. All together, I got everything I needed done.

The really frustrating part was my father wanted to go to the store to buy something to clean the bathroom floor, at which point he got informed that I have the supplies and was planning on doing it this past Wednesday, but there were Crises and that meant I didn't get it done. I'll do it next Wednesday.

I have to admit I'm enjoying the Switch now.! Kit had bought the original some years back with BOTW but it was mainly her and Bobby that played on it and Little Susie playing Animal Crossing, but with me being the one stuck out front the last year I started playing more after Bro brought us the Switch OLED (as old one kept shutting down) to try and improve hand-eye co-ordination. I do find the bigger screen easier to see for some games but find it better docked for the small menu boxes on SDV and the Yoga/exercise games. I still like to do AC in handheld mode though while watching TV at night.

I've seen a new peaceful open world game, with lovely graphics, no monsters to fight but has the open world riding about on horseback and has a SDV element to it in that you inherit a old ranch thats seen better days and you rebuild it, breed horses go out riding round the scenery. I think there's some quests to do,it's not out till Nov so Bro will get us it for xmas. So pleased we've got one chill exploration game that's land based and the ABZU one under water. I prefer the slower paced ones and puzzles with no time limit!

Getting into the meditation on switch game but app versions you listen to I find difficult to follow as can't work out what the words are or get any visual cues especially as don't have hearing aids in at night but the Tinnitus is so loud its taking 2 hours to get off to sleep some nights.

I feel like I am making a lot of progress in therapy/recovery lately, but it is difficult to put into words, and also, I am not even sure what it is exactly. It just feels sunnier and brighter inside.

I will try to sit down and write about it later in the day untill something gets out and I can finally figure what is going on.

Long time, no posts.
We're still alive.

Starting a job... that feels like a big deal. Terrified to find out whether we can handle it and what will happen inside and with the therapy work. I found out that I'm physically chronically ill, so that is unfortunate, but I'm glad to have a name for it now and I was already used to the symptoms.

Progress in therapy is slow, but hopefully steady. We keep bumping into a wall as far as integration is concerned. I guess it's just not the time for it.
Or maybe it depends on definitions, because we rarely get amnesia and almost no hijacking anymore.

I miss you guys!

TriForce-

It's wonderful. I think for me most of it is about friendships and relationships which are important for us as a whole. Overall, I've noticed that gaming has helped some of my physical issues too, and I'm so glad that your games are helping you a lot as well.

Arbremonde- That is wonderful to hear.

Fireheart- Hi! it's wonderful to meet you. I do hope that your job goes well.

As for us...

Father (which we have settled on) is doing better. He's tired a lot, but he's eating and drinking more and is more stable.

Yesterday was strange since someone we are certain we've never met before was out all day up until a difficult person showed up and Pippa came forward. I need to explain more about Lily, but that's in our thread. All together, things are fairly okay. A situation with a family friend seems to have resolved regarding her neice.

I hope everyone's day is going well.
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