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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby IainEtc » Wed May 26, 2021 10:28 am

The Littles and I wake up pretty early. Then Host. The Teens aren't up till later. We're not fully staffed till maybe 10. Same at the other end. Littles go to sleep early. Then Host. The Teens stay up late. Just the way it is.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby KitMcDaydream » Fri May 28, 2021 7:59 am

We've always worked in 'shifts', we've never had everyone around at the same time. It would have been far too overwhelming for our hosts as we are many but can be anyone or anything.

Because of the originals autism and lack of ability to understand for most of the bodies life, we changelings would only present as needed in whatever form she would understand at the time to help her work through somethings. Most often she would 'feel' she was pretending to talk with her favourite pop stars or TV stars about something so as not to scare her.

We have played anything from Aslan the talking lion for little Susie,a Navi tribe for Kit (pretending she was in Avatar movie) TV presenters, to an Android or a Vulcan on a Starship! Our system can be as big or small as our hosts wishes or can cope with because we are a tribe of changelings that live very deep within.

Phoenix is our spokesperson and is typing this. Except for Phoenix who was assigned to be CA Susie's companion (and who named her) We do not have names (or genders/ages) because we are who ever the host wants or needs us to be in that moment.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby TheGangsAllHere » Sat May 29, 2021 9:37 pm

We had a good session with our T yesterday, but there's a lot of stress at home.

***Trigger Warning*** (minor self-harm)


We've been having self-harm urges for the past several weeks, and have been able to resist, but last night we couldn't anymore, and made big bruises by banging a fist on each hip.


****end TW****

We don't know how to handle all the feelings inside that would be very hurtful if we expressed them. We're supposed to feel like a mom, and we don't. There are parts who want the outside boy (who's an adult) to go away--they hate him and resent his presence here, and don't want to have to be a mom. He's very angry, and we get so triggered by loud stomping around, doors slamming, and being yelled at. We didn't cause the difficulties he's having--he has an injury that is taking a long time and a lot of exercises to heal. He refuses help because he says nothing will help, and then gets mad that no one is helping him.

We finally got the husband to step in and talk to him last night when we told him about the self harm and us needing to take something to calm down. And we don't even care what they talked about as long as we don't have the slamming and stomping going on.

People are expecting us to be a certain way, and we just can't fit into what they expect. We've been trying to think if we have any friends or relatives that we could go and stay with. We've never done anything like that before--just left and gone somewhere else. But we feel so trapped, and it feels like as long as we're here, the expectations are weighing on us and we're constantly disappointing people.

I don't know. We just feel so desperate and like we're going to fall apart.
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby IainEtc » Sat May 29, 2021 9:49 pm

Hi,

Hey guys. Don't fall apart. I think you had a good idea about going away for a while. That's helped us before. We went out of town to a nice hotel and got a really great dinner. The next day we saw a cool museum and drove home. It was enough to do to keep us ok but away from all the messed up stuff.

Good luck,

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby KitMcDaydream » Sun May 30, 2021 10:01 am

TheGangsAllHere wrote:
People are expecting us to be a certain way, and we just can't fit into what they expect. But we feel so trapped,


Our human alters feel like this a lot, not for the same reasons (there is no external 'child and partner'), but due to the bodies medical history and Host Maddie having severe difficulties moving forwards at the time of mobility issues.
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby Truly_happy » Sun May 30, 2021 6:30 pm

Hi, people.

I have no idea how long it's been since I've been out here. Sadly, I am just here because someone outside of the system is causing me to have a bad day. I was feeling isolated and alone, so I thought I'd go online on a safe area of the internet and post my experience and my feelings about it. I ended up here. Hello.

Darn it, DID is not funny! It's not a joke! I have DID and I can't think of a single joke to make about it. BUT someone I know makes lots of jokes about it. So there I was, on a forum I love (but not this one) with people I love, reading a thread that had some very funny jokes when the admin of the dang website makes a joke about "multiple personalities". GRRRRR! :evil: I remember having to stop going to this website shortly after finding out about my DID because I didn't feel comfortable there anymore. I've been back out there for a few months now, very happy to be back, and then this happens! Okay, the joke was from a few years back, during the time I was gone, but still. It's out there and I found it. It ruined my mood. It's still ruining my day.

I'm so upset. Why does the world boil DID down to entertainment? :cry: My life is not funny. It is not some great drama where I kidnap or murder people because I'm bat@$%&-crazy. Dang ... I'm the victim here! I'm the one who suffered! Why is my life a joke?

Anyway, I told that person not to make fun of mental illness "ever". I hope she gets it and never makes a joke about DID again. If not, I'm afraid I may just have to tell her in a private message that I have DID and that I know for a fact that it is no joke and that it hurts my heart every time she says something like this. (Sighs.) I don't know ... I guess I'll have to come out here more often so I don't feel isolated or surrounded by people who just don't get it.

Thanks for listening.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby ArbreMonde » Mon May 31, 2021 9:21 am

I totally get you! That's the difference between "lauging at someone" and "laughing with someone". When I want to have a good laugh at DID related stuff, I look for content posted by DID people. It's completely not the same thing and it's way more relatable!

Sending moral support your way!

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby Truly_happy » Mon May 31, 2021 12:36 pm

Thank you for your support, Urielles. :)
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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby MakersDozn » Mon May 31, 2021 10:06 pm

Just checking in to say hello to everyone and send good thoughts to those who are struggling, as well as congratulating those who've had recent successes.

We care.

Mainly we're focusing on therapy, self-care, and basic outside obligations. We've been posting mainly in our journey thread. It's important to our well-being for us to stay connected with people who matter and who understand.

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Re: How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Postby Truly_happy » Tue Jun 01, 2021 5:36 pm

So good to hear from you, MD's! :D I'll have to take a look at your thread. Yes, it is important to keep in touch.

I think I'm finally over the joke about DID. It took a few days, but I'm fine now. My fight-or-flight response has stopped, anyway, and the person who made the joke has now apologized and deleted it. The internet may be a little bit safer now. Yay!

We found someone today. He is not a "new" alter in the sense that he fused and the fusion resulted in a brand new identity. We know this person by face and name and it is a comfort to have him with us again. I just have to remember to put his name on our latest alter list ... easier said than done.

We're working on our website again. We started on it back in 2019 but barely worked on it in 2020. I think we just have a LOT of corrections to make in places and a lot of articles to write for our Articles section ... I just have writer's block.

So ... if you went to a website about DID and you wanted to read an article, what would it be about? Right now, we have an article on fusion and that's it. Please give feedback. Pwetty pwease.

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