How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Hi PRIDE,

I'm glad you're being strong for everyone. It's hard not being able to find a DID T. Sounds like a pretty stupid book.

Stay strong.

Iain

CN medical stuff
we are really sick and in a lot of pain. acute pyelonephritis.
spent most of the day waiting and worrying, wondering if we need to see a doc.
we were the last patient today...
totally had a panic attack when he started pushing the ultra sound thing into places that hurt like hell.
I want to forget about this day. didn't dare to take painkillers out of fear of missing a change in symptoms. we once had a ruptured colon cause we didn't feel the pain in time...
haven't eaten cause who is hungry when everything hurts.
Missed a T appointment too.
today sucks so badly.

were sorry your in so much pain birdsong
we hope it gets better soon
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Hi birdsong,

Sorry you're sick. Get better soon ok? You're like an important person so you deserve to take care of yourselves.

Iain

birdsong, we’re sorry to hear that you’re in so much pain. I hope the infection responds to the treatment really quickly. Good job getting yourselves to the doctor! Sorry you had to miss T—hope you can reschedule it for as soon as you’re well enough.

Hi,

The Protectors are really having a seriously hard time. They've been on like DEFCON 1000 for MONTHS! They're always up in the middle of the night and when we go out it's like going into enemy territory. I'm kind of scared they'll buy some guns. It's all a freaking MESS! I hope this calms down pretty soon. I miss the Protector guys. When they're not freaking out and yelling orders they're seriously cool to have around. Just not right now.

Iain

its really boring right now. tried to connect to people but they are so different. I really don't belong there. so I watched youtube videos for waaaay too long. body is still in pain so no movement or sports and I could reeally use a workout. did you know we have tinnitus now? I haven't fronted for so long I wasn't aware that the body is falling apart like this. I can't hear it when co-con. so weird.
wish I had people to talk to who are more like me.

Hi Annette,

You can always talk to us. We like hearing from you. Sorry the body is so messed up. Hope you can work out soon. I know that helps.

Iain

things have been very hard, but one interesting thing is that tonight, when time usually whirs by (and slips by in a way that feels very much like losing time), well tonight I feel like that didn't happen like it usually does, (somehow it is probably connected to how much the last few days have been extra hard, even though that doesn't totally make sense.

-- Sun Feb 07, 2021 3:49 am --

birdsong, sorry to hear you have tinnitus. I have heard of it and it sounds like a real annoyance.

the pain is going down by now, slowly recovering.
took a shower and oof, I have to sit here for a moment...
feeling sad
when I rest there is so much sadness coming up. no wonder we keep busy all the time