How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Hey Hilde sweetie,

I miss Indie and Amber too. I wish they d never had gone tho I know this counts as progress.
Do you want another hug? I bought a nice balloon for them, if you want to you can hold it?

I m missin everyone really.
I just want them back. No, they aren t gone, but I can t cuddle anyone.

I guess it ll pass

Minnie

Tom, well done for not smokin for the past days! That takes great effort
It s nice to have the beach nearby?
I hope you feel a tad better today.

Minnie

-- Thu Jul 25, 2013 10:42 am --

Lifelongthing, I m glad to read you re feelin rather fine. I hope it may stay that way for you
A hello to Anastacia

Minnie

i think maybe people are not being very nice to me?

I'm annoyed. I have a load of things I want to get on with.

Try to take myself off somewhere else give people space. Until I can hold good conversation. The almost constant presence isn't intentional.

Nina11 wrote:Hey Hilde sweetie,

I miss Indie and Amber too. I wish they d never had gone tho I know this counts as progress.
Do you want another hug? I bought a nice balloon for them, if you want to you can hold it?

I m missin everyone really.
I just want them back. No, they aren t gone, but I can t cuddle anyone.

I guess it ll pass

Minnie

I wud like a hug And the balloon
I miss them to but Lana say it's better for you

Nina11 wrote:Tom, well done for not smokin for the past days! That takes great effort
It s nice to have the beach nearby?
I hope you feel a tad better today.

Minnie

-- Thu Jul 25, 2013 10:42 am --

Lifelongthing, I m glad to read you re feelin rather fine. I hope it may stay that way for you
A hello to Anastacia

Minnie

Thanks!
Yes it's lovely!
I'm feeling horrible today though. I feel really weird. I have to go to my father's house this weekend. I'd give anything to not have to go.
Tom

*trigger warning - don't read if self-harm/suicide triggers you!*
It's horrible everything it's horrible. Mother doesn't understand what we say doesn't understand we tell her that father isn't good but she doesn't believe us she says it's his way to talk but he hurts and hurts when talks I hope I can kill him someday.
It's stupid they're stupid why don't they let us choose it's stupid we're 15 we can decide Tom can decide Tom doesn't want to go to his father house why do we have to go it's stupid we should be able to choose I'm going to kill myself I can't handle this anymore all what I want is to cut and cut and die and die and everything. I just want to kill them they will be safer then right? I have no choice life doesn't make sense that way I hate that guy I hate the guy with long hair I hate him I hate his wife she wants to kill us I just want to kill her stupid fat horrible person they don't deserve to life but I want to kill kill and die and die and cut and cut it has no sense it's horrible I can't I can't I have to go I will go I will go away I will I will go to another country where there are no fathers I just want to kill him and kill me and whatever I can't handle this I need help I need help b uthey don't help me because they don't believe me you believe me right? I'm tiny they can't listen to me they don't want to nobody knows about me I'm going to explode and kill them I cna't handle this
Christine

hurting today. wish someone could come and save us.


we broke reality. now we're just floating in a constant dream

Lifelongthing, I m glad to read you re feelin rather fine. I hope it may stay that way for you
A hello to Anastacia

Thank you Hope you feel better soon.

i think maybe people are not being very nice to me?

I'm annoyed. I have a load of things I want to get on with.

Try to take myself off somewhere else give people space. Until I can hold good conversation. The almost constant presence isn't intentional.

I'm sorry you're feeling like this. Is there anything you can do to help this without taking yourself away (unless that feels positive for you)? Hope you feel better soon.

----- FLASHBACK TALK WARNING----

going out with very close family specially my father usually triggers a lot of flashbacks so I try to avoid that. so today my father was annoyed because I didn't want to go out with him considering how good the weather was etc.
so as he was talking the flashbacks started and I struggled my way to the bedroom but he followed me to the bedroom and continued talking so I yelled at him "I'M NOT IN MOOD NOW!". he left the room but the physical/psychological flashbacks continued for less than an hour before I fell a sleep for a short time (I believe it was so). then I woke up and felt devastated but then depersonalization and derealization took over.
derealization didn't last long but depersonalization has stayed with me pretty much the whole day

I'm sorry to hear that Sanan22 - I hope you feel better soon.

Good to see you Katana. Lovely picture

One of my littles was upset(er) since my SO finished the biscuit that he wanted sooo bad yesterday. He threw a tantrum. I never knew he/we could be *that* dramatic, lol. I feel sorry for him, but I had a good laugh about that after .

It looks like it's the mean one's turn today. Still being his usual critical self. Good thing he was no longer host. Bad thing is he no longer care about his actions since I'm responsible as the host. I don't really care about him either. He's not so mean inside.

I, on the other hand, feels pretty good