How are you today thread (trigger warning)

I am feeling very sad again today... not sure why. None of the others are around right now (not even the depressive), so it is very quiet in my head.

ETA: hmm, this is what sadness must feel like for a singleton: 'normal' sadness. I never suffer from loneliness because at least one of the others is usually in my head (usually more), but I can imagine it must be lonely for singletons to not interact with other human beings, if it feels like this all the time...

niva wrote:I am feeling very sad again today... not sure why. None of the others are around right now (not even the depressive), so it is very quiet in my head.

I'm also very sad.
I quit smoking again, after 10 days of not-smoking and 3 days of smoking.
I feel like I blew it up, I don't know why.
I feel really bad, but tomorrow I'll go to Germany for a week and I won't be able to smoke there, so I think it will help me a lot.
-Tom

LanaDelRey wrote:I'm also very sad.
I quit smoking again, after 10 days of not-smoking and 3 days of smoking.
I feel like I blew it up, I don't know why.
I feel really bad, but tomorrow I'll go to Germany for a week and I won't be able to smoke there, so I think it will help me a lot.
-Tom

Succes means trying one more time than the amound of times it failed. And failure isn't a bad thing, since each mistake can teach us something.

Best of luck wished to you!

Thanks for asking how we were doing lifelongthing! (A few pages back now lol - sent you a pm I think a little bit ago because I knew we were going to be off the boards for a bit)

We had another funny DID moment today. After last weeks experience of falling out a tree because our male boy alter wasn't happy that anyone but him was climbing it, today I had on a dress (which is VERY unlike me) much to this same alters disgust when coming out into the body in therapy. I'm glad he didn't just rip it off though lol.

Got to hang onto the funny bits

Angry, just angry, so it might be a trigger...

Humans tell me to behave, to be kind. I try, I am being kind, I am being social, but then they are busy, they have 0 time because they are way too busy. Do humans only have time if I misbehave? great encouragement! If you want me to be kind, treat me fair! Don't make life any harder for me if you're already asking a lot of me.

Rebel

bourbon wrote:today I had on a dress (which is VERY unlike me) much to this same alters disgust when coming out into the body in therapy.

Funny, I had a very similar experience today. It's kind of weird walking along the street, feeling like you're in drag

Feeling pretty good today. My first day on vacation so I haven't done much but feeling okay.

Owleyes wrote:Funny, I had a very similar experience today. It's kind of weird walking along the street, feeling like you're in drag

Absolutely!

Bourbon: I was just logging on to check in on you. Sending you a PM. Good to hear from you Safe hugs if wanted.

I'm still sad, but more physically tired now. We had T today, which makes most of us feel better.
Not me N wants me to talk about gross things again
For the depressive - and for me - and for you. I want to deal with the self-disgust I feel about my body, and the depressive's self-disgust. I need you to be brave again for us - being brave will be good for you again, even if it's scary. We know you can do it.
God you guys I'm excited - really, super excited (about painting the tree-house )
(the depressive is also scared to bring up those feelings.
I don't know where niva is)
I think you guys are all being ridiculous. Where is niva?