How are you today thread (trigger warning)

It has mostly passed now, thankfully. Wow. We were going to call the crisis line but realized we were nearly incapable of speech, rational speech that is. We did chat with a close friend on Facebook which helped some. We are still in a bit of an odd state, floaty and fuzzy, but I don't feel like tearing off my skin anymore. We will be talking about this with our trauma therapist for sure. We made something to eat and will likely be heading for a nap soon.

LittleDaria--that sounds horrible. Glad it has passed and that you had some support. Do you think there might have been a triggering dream?
Terrin

I am calmer now that I have slept. Looking back upon it I think I was not sure who I was, an existential crisis if you will. Emotionally it was a panic/fear response I think which manifested itself in a variety of ways. I am actually wondering if what was happening was a series of switching, hence the different reactions/behaviour/emotional states. I can't really know for sure. One thing is for sure, I don't look forward to it happening again! There was a strange confused desperation to it that is a new feeling for me which was overpowering and had a physical aspect to it, a kind of skin-crawling feeling. I would have to say it was the strangest feeling I have had in a long time.

It brings up a question. Can different alters fight for control of the main body?

Pre-menstral syndrone.

- Cullen

For those of you who don't have working female reproductive systems ...

... PMS is when the body absorbs so much water that it puts pressure on the brain. When that happens, you get more than a headache. Suddenly, all the negligible problems in life are unbearable. You get upset easily and act out of character, often creating remorse. You might even feel like lethally injuring yourself ... but you can't even poke your finger to check your blood sugar. PMS just sucks.

The week after isn't fun, either. x_X

And that's how I am today. (Sigh.)

- Cullen

Empathizing with the female-body stuff. Boy, are we glad that we don't have to deal with that anymore.

But be forewarned. Even after monthly visits stop, hormonal and mood fluctuations don't. At least not right away.

On an unrelated note, we're feeling run-down and queasy and are staying home from work today.

MDs

I was cleaning and remembered at childhood home everything was always super filthy because my parents worked all the time. I realized my parents also dissociate heavily from everything and hence also are really shallow, superficial and don't have normal emotions to speak of, just anxiety or aggression or nothing. Just like me! My siblings are the same. None of them have any diagnoses because it's all work work work or busy busy busy, and apparently it works (no pun intended).

Very nasty father introject being abusive. Yes, I know, he has a function (although we don't know what it is yet), but it still sucks. I'm terrified.
Thanks,
Berta

Berta,

We have an evil father introject, too. So far, we have no idea how to work with him and are afraid to even try to begin. Anyway, you're not alone in your struggles. I hope we can all learn to heal from these wounds, perhaps together.

- the Neighborhood

Home sick again today. We always feel like we're being judged for anything we do. Not specific to people at work, but in general. Living this way is part of why we're sick.

MDs