How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Completely agree with your entire post Becca. That is our goal as well. And MittleMie is right, when I first moved into my last house with my ex wife, within the first month of living there the upstairs AC unit was leaking and overflowed causing the ceiling to cave in right in front of me. New ac untis for a house that big were right under 20k. Fun stuff, so be ready. A/C, the Roof/Shingles, large appliances, and foundation can be some of the most expensive things to worry about. However, you don't have noisy neighbors that jam out until 3am when you wake up at 5am and already have trouble sleeping, and you get a garage and much more space for just a little bit more a month.

The day care unit I'm in is really good.
We get sessions with a Social worker, an art therapist and a Psychiatrist.
The Art Therapist works with the Littles-3Littles & Sara.
Every day in the morning there is group therapy.
Group Therapy is kind of a big thing.
I've never been to one until the daycare unit.
My social worker said I was a naturally therapeutic personality,
I told her I was just a Parental child.
Group therapies are a powerful tool.
I find out about who I am at the groups,
but I am also finding out how Elli is in group.
I sometimes watch her as she carries fiery speeches to encourage everyone.
Elli is fierce. She is vivid. People are drawn to her vividness.
I've seen her hugging people, I've seen her lending her shoulder to another woman to cry on.
She cheers people up.

After that there is another group activity. I.E movement therapy, TED lectures, therapeutic kitchen, Bibliotherapy or Art therapy. There is also a DBT group.

After that, everyone has lunch together, sit around and talk a bit & than we go home.

We also continue to do other things. We still go to the university (Now more than ever)
& work 4 other a week. We still visit the client in the Psych Ward that we've been working for over 2 years. And now we have another client.
And we babysit.

Plus
we're also married
so life can't be that bad , right?

Hanging in. Working late a lot preparing for the office move in mid-January. Tired. And feeling fragile. As usual.

MDs

Our computer is out until the parts come in and Colin can fix it. Really sucks. Were using a tablet but its not any good for typing stuff. I want to go get a new computer but Colin says not to. He likes old stuff that he can fix. I like new stuff that works better.

Oh and someone hit our car and busted the tail light. That's seriously expensive. Colin's fixing that too when they send the new plastic.

I guess we're ok just things are breaking faster than we can fix them and that makes Host nervous. Hope nothing else breaks

Iain

helluva way to start the new year lain.

MakersDozn wrote:Hanging in. Working late a lot preparing for the office move in mid-January. Tired. And feeling fragile. As usual.

MDs

I hear ya.

IainEtc wrote:He likes old stuff that he can fix. I like new stuff that works better.

Definitely agree with you on this one. My computer is all sorts of messed up and instead of fixing the old gal' I'm just going to have to replace her. It's time for an upgrade anyway.

today its 3 years since the big breakdown.
i could weep all day.
i guess i am somehow missing how far we have come because when i look at my life i see a mess.

Hey L and everyone else,

Hang in there. You are doing great. We have all seen your progress, life IS better. Read your thread, read the posts of advice you give (which are truly amazing).

Give yourselves the comfort you need, be gentle and kind.

i feel so stuck today.
it somehow starts to become real, that we lost out T.
in march we will lose our assistant T as well.
losing so many important people is causing grief already.

thanks Sam. maybe things will feel better tomorrow.
right now its mostly despair.

birdsong87 wrote:today its 3 years since the big breakdown.
i could weep all day.
i guess i am somehow missing how far we have come because when i look at my life i see a mess.

Hi Birdsong - probably getting this wrong and trying not to make too many assumptions but after several 'breakdowns' and then feeling things come back together and then having a pretty big collapse 12 months ago I concur in that all I see is a mess - however now beginning to think that maybe things were always a mess but we had less awareness so in essence we were always going to end up at this point. Without mess no clarity, no progress.

Having said that anniversaries of anything are always sh**ty and things feel worse. You will also be feeling grief and loss that due to loosing important people there is no right or wrong with this stuff its just learning to ride the feelings. I am sorry for waffling really just meaning to wish you well, keep at it you have come farther than you feel right now.